I want to kill myself. I think that if I was skinnier I wouldn’t wanna die anymore. I have always had the goal to make it to the size 0 jeans. I don’t see it ever happening. I am too fat. I don’t have enough willpower. I wish things were easier for me and I could just drop 2 sizes. I wanna be skinny. I wanna be Skinner more then I want anything in the world. I am not okay. I’m also not thin enough to have an eating disorder so I don’t know what I am doing. I have been like this since I was 7. I have always wanted to feel thin. I would puke in bathrooms in second grade. I would skip lunches in seventh grade. I nonstop work out now in ninth. I am a mess. A mess that deserves to die.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
2 comments
Wait, I was a bodybuilder, I could help you to make a diet and a schedule for you.
You are handsome/beautiful. If you have a normal BMI, then there is no need to worry and doing worry will be waste of time. We don’t always do what is right/good for us . So you may not be able to do what is right/good for you. So in that case, trying cognitive therapy or surgery or all that doctor stuff will help you.