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Emotions suck

by mina711 4/14/2019

written by mina711

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I’ve been looking for ways to numb myself. I get absolutely nowhere. It’s not fair, I just wanna be numb. I don’t wanna make an effort to even feel better anymore. I just wanna stop feeling emotion.

I hate being brokenhearted over my ex. I hate being stressed about going off to college. I hate that painful lump in my throat I get from crying. I hate the cold sweat I break into when I’m anxious. I hate the fire that burns in my heart. I want to be dormant and freeze my heart up for good.

I want to die, but I fear the afterlife. My […]

4/14/2019 3 comments

Thoughts.

by anonymous7777 4/4/2019

written by anonymous7777

Every single day, a thought of me committing suicide or me simply not being here.. crosses my mind.

I want to obtain happiness within, but the darkness/sadness wins every time. It’s hard to walk up a very steep hill with 20tons on your back.

My thoughts are always with me, I cannot escape them.

my thoughts hurt me. actions hurt me. everything hurts.

4/4/2019 2 comments

I can’t stop crying

by sugarcoated 9/22/2018

written by sugarcoated

Last night, I had my 18th birthday. I invited 13 people. And only 4 showed up. We made so much food. The evidence of people not coming is still here. People just told me they couldn’t come last minute. I felt shitter as the night went on.

I had a 3 tier cake. A fire pit to roast marshmallows. Cocktails. Multiple games. In the end it didn’t matter what was at the party people still didn’t show.

It was half an hour until two of my friends showed. They were the first guests. I thought they were the only ones coming until another two showed up. I felt […]

9/22/2018 9 comments

Hard day

by checherose555 6/26/2018

written by checherose555

Just feeling very broken. I just had a good weekend around friends, but I feel like all of the emotional energy may have triggered something sad or dark. Idk if it happens that way for others? I’m trying but I’ve already cried a few times today.

6/26/2018 3 comments

Crying

by NumbExhaustion 5/14/2018

written by NumbExhaustion

Ok, so this is really weird but, like, I really miss being able to cry. Like I started meds about 7 months ago and since then, I’ve been unable to have a really good cry regularly. It feels like I’m on the edge of a breakdown and I really hate this feeling. Like, I kinda want to go back to last year when I was crying almost every day because at least then I had some way of releasing whatever I was feeling. Like, now my only way of releasing my emotions when I can’t draw or write is through self harm but even that […]

5/14/2018 4 comments

Sittin’ on the dock of the bay,wastin’ time…

by Taf Taf 2/11/2018

written by Taf Taf

2/11/2018 16 comments

Another day has passed…

by Taf Taf 2/10/2018

written by Taf Taf

I woke up this morning,went to the kitchen and made a coffee.I sat in front of my pc and I started watching videos on youtube,smoking and trying to kill time.Most of the time I wasn’t paying any attention to these videos.I was thinking.Thinking about my life and the world.

I spent most of my life in this empty house (I’ve been living here since I left my parents’ house when I was 20 years old).Alone.I haven’t got any purpose or any goals to reach.I’ve saved some money,so I don’t have to work for now.But I know that I’ll have to find a job.Working is a nightmare.I […]

2/10/2018 15 comments

I was raped…

by AJ 2/1/2018

written by AJ

On the 29th of December.
I lost my virginity.
To my now ex boyfriend.
I didn’t say no.
But I most definitely didn’t say yes.
I was too scared.
He was emotionally manipulative and I knew that “no” wasn’t an answer to him.
So I kept my mouth shut.
I lay there.
And took it.
It only occurred to me today that it was wrong.
I’m a fucking idiot.
But now I can’t breath.
I want to rip my skin off.
Every part he touched now burns with repulsion and I can’t take it.
Fuck

2/1/2018 10 comments

The reason for me to live, is so others may not die

by KoertsMeijer1997 8/23/2017

written by KoertsMeijer1997

I honestly am not sure where to start this all off. This is a very long story, just to let you know. For starters, I am a 20yo male. I’ve dealt with severe clinical depression, anxiety, and anger issues since I was 11yo.

I am a current EMT and am a Paramedic student in Maryland. I joined the fire department when I was 17, and have been an EMT since I was 18.

One of my first calls as a 17yo EMT student, it had been a pretty tough day. We had already run a cardiac arrest, and I was in general having one of my down […]

8/23/2017 5 comments

I feel Alone

by Nugget 2/28/2017

written by Nugget

I’ve complemented suicide since I was 7-years-old, it’s tragic and horrific knowing children experience such thoughts so young. I come from a family where discipline means a visit to a room with the doors closed and anything at hand. It meant having to contain my tears and cries or the pain would just get worse. At 13 I got bullied for being Hispanic, it was the first time I realized skin color had a meaning. I was stereotyped as a Mexican whose dad left and the only thing I’ve ever accomplished was hoping the border. My mother at that time would make my life at […]

2/28/2017 6 comments

I feel like I should end my life

by Cryinginsilence 10/12/2016

written by Cryinginsilence

I don’t have that many friends and I’ve been abused. Not many people are there for me and I constantly feel alone all the time. Last night I was sobbing really hard and I had nobody to talk too. I constantly feel like nobody cares about me and that my life is pointless. I’m always helping other people out with their problems but when it comes to me I get nothing. I’ve even reached out to Forums and hardly nobody responded which makes me feel even worse and that nobody cares about me. Not even my own family supports me. I’m constantly always supporting people […]

10/12/2016 5 comments

Crying again * what a surprise*

by kupo95 4/30/2016

written by kupo95

I think the fact that I been cutting on an unusual amount recently has finally got me. I finally talked to both of my parents they’re both telling me to come home which I’m starting to think they’re right I’ve only been here 1 month the Amount have a Damage made to myself is too much . I think I’m actually might have left a scar so I I haven’t left a scar since I was 17 years old .when I left the the first letter of the words garbage worthless dirt selfish junk and I should kill myself .I seen yesterday those letters are […]

4/30/2016 4 comments

Protected: Crying in bed

by whiskered-fish 4/5/2016

written by whiskered-fish

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4/5/2016 17 comments

Crying doesn’t help…

by claritee 3/7/2016

written by claritee

Sometimes I just stare at my wrists when I get like this and wonder what it would be like to plunge a knife through my artery and veins. When the pain eats away at me and crying doesn’t even help. Crying used to help. I felt ashamed the other night when I just cried myself to sleep and woke up and realized that I didn’t take my dog out, that I left my kitchen a mess, that I slept in my clothes. I never do that. I have never cried myself to sleep either.

3/7/2016 4 comments

Hopeless

by suicideroom 1/9/2016

written by suicideroom

Let me start from the beginning. (I’m now revising this and this definitely did not go in the order I thought it would)
I don’t want to reveal my identity too much so i’ll play this safe and call myself Kai.
I’m seventeen years old, eighteen in March. I’m a transgender boy (born female) and i’m gay. My mom’s side of the family is one of the biggest group of unsupportive close minded people you will ever meet. Ever since I was young, I knew i felt different than my siblings and cousins. My family tries to look like your average apple pie and a […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

I Understand Now

by ugh_sxph 11/1/2015

written by ugh_sxph

My friend, lets call her Bells, was under a lot of stress at the time, emotional and physical stress, not having to do with school but with how she felt. I didn’t really know why, she never told me much less anyone, but she said she was abused and she was bullied most of the time, people called her “fat” and “ugly” etc. but she wasn’t either of those, but there was so much hate, that in blinded her. One afternoon, in Spanish, the rain was heavy on the window pane, and our teacher had us jot down ideas, and Bells started to write things […]

11/1/2015 1 comment

Poem for today

by kzn123 10/28/2015

written by kzn123

I’m new to here, so hello… I’ve been feeling down for a while now and alots been going on… I’m sure a lot of you can relate to this poem …

You make me feel so worthless
So depressed and so alone
You make me feel like crying
And cutting deep into the bone

You look at me in solitude
With your evil looking glare
Make me feel so worthless
Like I’m living in despair

I want you to understand
To have some gratitude in there
To feel the emptiness I feel
And the loneliness in the bed we share

Why am I here
What have I done
Will […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

by Hi 6/25/2015

written by Hi

Its funny, because as soon as I cut, the tears stop. I have no need to cry anymore. Until tommorow.

6/25/2015 4 comments

Depression rants

by Hi 6/23/2015

written by Hi

A couple days ago, my sister found out that I cut. I confronted yahoo answers for it and I got a negative reply. They told me that I cut because I was only seeking attention. They said my “selfishness” was hurting everyone around me. I never meant for anyone around me to find out. I am cutting to cope with my feelings (its bad I know) but it was NOT for attention. I feel so much guilt when I look at my sister now. I feel so bad that she found out that I cut. I have desperatly been searching for a better alternative. I […]

6/23/2015 6 comments

Skinny

by Weigh2Go 5/20/2015

written by Weigh2Go

I want to kill myself. I think that if I was skinnier I wouldn’t wanna die anymore. I have always had the goal to make it to the size 0 jeans. I don’t see it ever happening. I am too fat. I don’t have enough willpower. I wish things were easier for me and I could just drop 2 sizes. I wanna be skinny. I wanna be Skinner more then I want anything in the world. I am not okay. I’m also not thin enough to have an eating disorder so I don’t know what I am doing. I have been like this since I […]

5/20/2015 2 comments

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