It would be selfish for me to kill myself considering all that my parents have done for me. They are the only 2 human beings that actually care about me. I just want to apologize to my parents for having such a big piece of crap that I am. I am literally already dead but still breathing. I stare brain dead into the computer screen all day, every tiny part of me is gone and I have to cry myself to sleep everyday. Being depressed for 5 years does that to people. How much longer I can keep going for my parents remains a mystery. Not long though is for certain. Not like I am making them happy by being alive either, considering I am nothing but a failure.
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I’m sure they love you just how you are. I told my parents years ago that I’d given up hope, yet they continued to be right there behind me every step. Even if you don’t want them to they have invested all their resources into making you the best you can be.
All I ask is that you try once more. You might surprise yourself at how quickly things can change with a more positive outlook.
The feeling of sitting at a pc everyday for an extended period of time is demoralizing for anyone. Just push yourself till you no longer can, that’s the best you can do.
Trying and failing is better than not trying at all and accepting how things are.
same here..parents are only reason for me to be alive still….
I can relate to what you’re going through, but I’m sure no matter what your parents still love you. Sometimes doing something small for them like cleaning up around the house can be a big help. Just remember to tell them how much you care…