A Girl, 21, I’ve been here before.
depression prone.
I keep resetting my date with death, cause i always have a hopeful chance i could be happy, but i realized that just not being honest.
My whole skeleton structure is throw off, and i have muscular imbalances from head to toe, I don’t think any one will ever understand how much pain I’m actually in…
IM just depressed because I want to live and can’t.
cant physically and mentally function with kid my own age or older.
I should be grateful I even have a beautiful mind.
But I pushed all my friends away, and anyone who I loved is gone.
I’m not happy, Im alone, Im tired and ready for release.
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i don’t understand the pain you’re dealing with, but i understand what you’re saying. i think every one experience the hurting in a slightly different manner, and we categorize it as ‘pain’, when actually we feel different. then no one understands no one, and that makes it even scarier.
it is, im sick of going to doctors not being able to hangout with friends and just be myself, be the girl i used to be so happy funnny and outgoing before any of this depletion has consume me , my everyday life, people even tell me im not who i used to be, i just say she died.
my mom just thinks im depressed, fustrated cause it always something, its not for attention, i dont want attention, when i constantly day im in pain. im just tired of complaining , its not gonna be easy and im to weak for anything more.
27F here, 6 years+ of chronic health issues & pain. EXTREMELY SEVERE allergies has basically made me live a life in a bubble. I know exactly those feelings you speak of. I never thought I’d be here, in this darkness. I am strong & resilient. But it hurts to not be able to LIVE even just a fraction of the way you want to. People just kind of fall out of your life. They distance themselves from you. I don’t know you but my heart goes out to you.