I don’t even know if I like being alone or not. Sometimes I want a friend, but other times I remember how impossible that is for me. Maybe I just want someone to talk to. That’s probably why I’m posting on this site, anyway. I don’t like feeling alone. I know that much about myself. I kind of feel like I’m walking on my own plane of existence, and nobody else can even see me. Like my world and the world everyone else lives in overlaps like a one-way mirror. I can see everyone else and know they’re there, but they can’t do that for me.
Whatever, I’m just rambling again. I may or may not start that short story tonight if anyone is still interested in what I have to say.
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I’m interested in what you have to say.
And no matter how alone you feel, you’re never truly alone. There will always be someone who cares. Always.
Hey there!!!!! Yeah, those who struggle with some sort of Mental Issues…….especially Depression have the problems of feeling alone. I know personally, I have Anxiety so bad that a lot of times I am afraid to even leave my room. Most of the time when I do, I am constantly agitated at people and the various things that come with “hanging out with friends.” And it makes it to where you don’t really want to be with anyone. But then, take it from someone who spends the majority of their time-and even life in total-behind the 4 walls of a bedroom in a small town no one would even know about should I say it. So much so that when I am asked where I am from I usually say the biggest known city closest to me. lol I want to be alone but then the lonliness all by itself can be pretty suffacating and of course only adds to the depression andthings like that. Though it doesn’t hurt any less, it is common for us to feel that way.
How often do you get out?? Can you meet new people?? Maybe just sick to online?? I don’t know. Imostly stick to online communication myself but at times pushing yourself to go out is good if you can do it some. Yeah, I know but listen…………..your reading this from someone who has severe Social Anxiety, is pretty much a hermit, is 26 years old but is unable to work, drive, or go out much to meet new people because even the places I do go is usually routine places. Most of which is because I have a controlling Grandmother who treatsme like a child and won’t allow me to learn these things and be independent from her, etc. So, yeah I say that to say I know I am asking something that sounds impossible. Believe me, I am seriously borderlining hypocrisy here myself. lol
BUT one thing I DO know is there has to be an answer for us even so. I don’t know how old you are but can you drive, or get someone to drive you places?? A bus?? I don’t know and to be real those things scare me like nothing else in this world. But I also realize lonliness isn’t good. And the thing is, even online is a great tool because you can share ideas, thoughts, problems, and have a “Friendship” without ever leaving your home. It is the option I mostly choose for now though one day I hope to be able to go outmore andmake some “Real” friends inthe “real” world. lol
As for your short story, please write it!!!!! I am interested in hearing it and as a fellow writer it seems to me we might have more in common than what I first thought. 🙂 I am always interested in other writers and their stories. We are many, but all have a perspective on life unique only to us. And though it is a cliche, your story really needs to be told!!!!!! Fiction, Nonfiction. Articles, Poems, Short Stories, even Novels……………..let us read it and share with us!!!! It is a deeply personal thing to do so I understand if you don’t want to right now, but do so as soon as you can!!!!!
After all, from where I sit you seem to already have 2 eager fans!!!!! 🙂 GO FOR IT!!!!!!!
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Sometimes I relish being alone. Just the other night, I was out in the kitchen when I heard my roommate. My first instinct was to duck behind the counter and hide. I don’t even know why. I just had that feeling of wanting to be alone. Other times, all I want is to connect with someone, anyone.
Count me in on the story either way.
being alone is nice sometimes. no one to judge you.