Well ive finally built up the courage to end it, there zero chance things get better . its like i try to talk to about my problem and ppl including my own mom just toss aside how i feel my depression , everything like is nothing. I just feel alone, im playing to lose.if i feel angry or sad my own family looks at me like i have no right to feel that way . funny thing is me and my mom got in an arguement just now and she wished me death at least she thinks so too . well someones wish is going to come true tonight. And it wont be so bad for once im gone i guess im dying a prisoner of my own misery but will finally be free and my mom and everyone that thinks i should be gone will get their wish its a win win
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don’t go 🙁
No, don’t. So much to live for. As in, making people mad, what’s better than that? Lol. And your mom wished you death? Jesus, what kinda shit is that. Yeah life sucks, so does death. But you keep fighting, and you make the best of what you have. Get up in the morning, and say this is going to be a good day. Try to think more positive thoughts, that should start improving your mood little by little each day. Just live life, no expectations, no disappointments. And live day by day, thinking of the future is a huge cause of my depression..because I feel I have a bleak future, avoid that at all costs. Because more than likely, you have a great future ahead of you, but you do have to play your part to make that happen. Well, good luck to you, hopefully everything goes well.
Take this suffering as a chance to gain strength that can be used to help people.
your family is only a small part of the world. whatever your most impossible cool dream is, somewhere in America there are people who right now are pretty good at it, you could go be among them and start being a whole different person. even if it is too scary to do it right this second, maybe just think about it as a happy lying story, like convicts do, thinking about the cabin they would build in the wilderness (they have no cabin or wilderness) and they will bore you with detail about the fireplace and the porch…where would you go, what would you do…maybe the oil patch in Williston North Dakota…