I’ve been wanting to kill myself for the past few days. I’m not healthy. I should talk to my psychiatrist and get my meds changed, but I don’t have the money to get new ones. I shouldn’t live. My moods flip-flopped for a day and then settled on depression. I can’t get out. Nothing is worth it. Not even my son, and he usually is. I can’t even cry anymore. How pathetic is that?
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You are worth living. You just can’t believe it due to your deep depression. I’m so sorry you are facing this. 8( Not crying? Oh, I know that feeling. To be tapped out of tears feels terrible.
I have felt as you do. I felt life wasn’t going to get any better. I didn’t have what I need- family or friends, work, money, sanity etc… I live in a city and state I don’t want to be. Most of time was so broke! But next month I am moving back to my home state.
AND that came about from a toxic job I hated. HATED. I made it through EIGHT months. Enough to save to move back. I have so much to figure out. But I will!
Remember, your reality right now is NOT the only reality available. Use your imagination to change your view of what is going on. The place where you are, it is just the place you are to give you a rest before you move on. There is a different life out there for you. It’s just that you are so down and it is hard to see your way out of it. But if you keep going, little things can happen, help you to get further down the road. Keep looking for them. Keep reaching out to people here, on other online places and in your community too.
I’ve decided that I am going to get out and walk around. When I am depressed, walk around and say hello to other people. Just get out of my head a little. Will it work all the time? No. But it will some days and will make a difference
I wish you the best today. Life is tough. I know it is and it feels impossible. But it IS possible.
Remember, life is about change. And you never know when that change will come. It WILL come.
((((hugs))))
You are a lovely girl “Pretend girl”, for writing such beautiful answers. And my heart goes out too to the mum who wrote the post. Pretend Girl is right in what she says, so listen to what she wrote.
Hugs to you both.