My mother is a lesbian. She hasn’t come out to me or my older sister yet in years. She and my father have been divorced for over 10 years. It’s a secret that I dispise having. She puts it in our faces that she’s gay and has and has had girlfriends. Recently I’ve been really depressed and she’s been putting it in my face that I’m wrong and that I’m her most problematic child. My sister is 7 years older than me. I am 19 and she is 26. She is living at home and has been living at home ever since she back from college. We are poor and can’t afford for me to live on or off campus of my college so I have no choice but to move back home and continue to share my room with my sister like we have been my WHOLE LIFE. I have 3 pieces of furniture right now in my room meanwhile my sister has over 10 and refuses to change it and accomodate us both in a clear and clean environment. She comes home stress from work everyday and gets mad at me for every little thing. And gets my non native speaking English mother to get on her side. So I then get scolded by the two of them. I luckily have a boyfriend in my life from college who has saved my life a couple of times this year whenever I have tried to kill myself. I feel worthless and like a ghost at home. No one lets me speak or gives me a chance to speak. They cut me off and call me selfish and horrible. They look at me with disgust and anger. I don’t know what I do wrong. I try to get them to see my side but they ignore me and get offended when I speak. They shove me off and tell me to shut up. I feel like if I were to kill myself that they still wouldn’t care. They would just continue to blame me for everything and call me a horrible person. I need help. I recently started to see a psychiatrist two days ago. So I am seeking professional help. But i just want to make sure if I should even mention all of this and if i am wrong or if being mentally put down by my mother and sister is my fault. Please help.