I’m a failure. There are so many things happening right now. My mother works so hard to put food on the table while fighting depression and a damn father who doesn’t give any money to help. And even with all this situation, I don’t know if I’ll be able to graduate because I’m so fucking stupid and lazy and weak. I’m just so fucking tired all the time and my cousin will get into a great college because she is working so hard and I’m just a damn lazy ass. I don’t study or really work for anything and I’m so tired of being a failure,but I don’t have energy or will or confidence to really do anythinh worth.
Really, the world would be a better place if I was dead. I know that my friends would be terrible sad but, honestly, they would move on. Same thing with my father, he has other children, and then he wouldn’t have to worry about my mom demanding the money
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I doubt it’s because you’re “lazy” it’s sounds more like you’re depressed and as a result, lack motivation and energy to keep going. Being lazy is a choice, you didn’t choose this. Don’t compare yourself with your cousin, everyone is different and everyone’s situations are different, we can’t all be the same.
Some fathers suck, mine does, but it sounds like your mother really cares for you. Have you tried talking to her about your problem? She might be more understanding since she’s dealing with depression as well.