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I need to spill how i feel: alone. I recently graduated from uni and moved back to LA with my parents. Ive realized that i have no friends. And the few people i believed were my friends dont seem to want to see me. 6 months ago my bf of 6 years broke up with me. Its been so hard to deal with. I guess its better since i was always dragging him down with my sadness. My eating disorder (bulimia) is worse than ever. Ive been this way 7 years. I have been trying to get treatment but the treatment centers are making it so hard to get started. I feel like i spend everyday wsiting for the day to end. Then i find myself afraid and unablebto sleep. Im so lonely.
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My doctor prescribed me sleeping pills. They could work for you. Your boyfriend was not the one for you. He wasn’t ready for how strong and awesome you are because you have fought with the sadness for so long and you may have thought about it but you did take your life (i dont really know your whole story). If you really want to get better you could always try the mental health part of the hospital but I would only go if you really want to get better and need some help.
I hear you sister, look at me, I’m up at 6am here…because I’m alone, (I mean no girlfriend and it’s been eating at me for a long time. I’m not saying relationships are a panacea, but when they work, they can be great.
So I fill up my free time with other things but this is the reason I’m not sleeping properly. I also used to be fit, but then I gained weight and I know if I can get fit again, women will find me attractive again and I won’t be alone, but I’m just not as disciplined as I used to be.
This is one significant reason among many that I am suicidal. Honestly in many ways if I was dead, it’d end a lot of my shitty life problems. But I go on for my friends, family and interests I have. Maybe I might reach my breaking point, some limit-haven’t reached it yet but when I do, then I’ll be ready to end it.
Sleeping pills are a possibility. I am trying to go to a treatment center that would hopefully deal with some of the mental issues.
Thank you for the reply its heartwearming that anyone cares
You’ve come to an awesome place to find like-minded individuals on this website, my friend.
Hi, thejocobaby. Loneliness is torture and it’s awful to be rejected by the ones you thought you had by your side. I have not been diagnosed with bulimia but I have had recurrent episodes of binging and purging. I hope you are able to be accepted into a treatment center, even just talk therapy can help get to the root cause of your bulimia. I really think starting treatment will be able to alleviate your symptoms.
This may not be the reason for you, but from my experience since my eating problems began I’ve had trouble with sleep. Sleeping pills can help but be careful with the ones you use as they can cause dependance. If you would like to talk, feel free to tell me. 🙂
Thanks hiohneh.
I really appreciate all your words