To be Honest- i don’t think I’m suicidal but I can tend to surprise myself. I’ve always been okay with my body till I hurt myself and started weighing more than I should. It started to make me more conscious when family would make a general comment.”you’ve gone big haven’t you?” it’s been a few years and since last year I made new friends and they would boost my confidence. My current partner boosts my confidence. My family bring me down and it’s worst because it hurts so bad and I try to change and make a difference but I’m so private about my feelings and I don tlike exercising in front of others became self.esteem is so low around the house, they won’t leave me alone. I have no privacy. I have a bickering sister and a mood swingy sister and a raging stubborn mother as well as a older brother who I hate for reasons. It’s just so hard. Knowing I am overweight at the moment and seeing the change makes me feel worthless and not my original self. Body positivity helps best when family are their most supportive and respect you. I’ve come to realise that. It’s just hard to obtain and so I am stuck.
Suicidal Suicidal.Suicidal. Well.. If I was suicidal it will always be something I’m too chickened to do.
Family would be myreason. So many time I’ve warned my mother that she will not realise how much I’m worth till I’m gone. It is something I want to prove.. But I wish I would be with her to see so that stops me I guess..
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Many people struggle with accepting their bodies. We can change our appearance but it’s not a guarantee that will make us happy. You should listen to your friends and partner if they are the ones boosting your confidence. Unfortunately, dysfunctional families are common and sometimes your friends can be more of a family than the people you’re related to.
I can understand your fear of suicide, a lot of us are here because we’re afraid to pull the trigger. I feel moving on with your life and finding happiness would be a better way to prove to your mother your worth. Making something of yourself is something that not everyone can do, but dieing is something everyone does. Sorry if I’m not making much sense. I do hope you can learn to accept yourself, as that has to come from yourself and not from anyone else.