Sometimes i wanted to end up this socalled life, sometimes im so scared about death, about the hell we sorta know less about.
and every night, like EVERY NIGHT, when i think about loads of worries, and all those problems of the years ive been thru i feel like shit, i dont know but i think its the uncertainty, which scares most humans, i dont know what am i doing tomorrow, my hearts pounding so loud, yet sorry not fast, thats the point which scared me like hell, i thought id die every single night, freaking creepy and i wont even kno im dead the other day, not even the reason
wonder if anyone got that feeling too, im over-worrying every single night n i couldnt hlp but cry the hell outta me, i tried to calm down, its when i started to tremble. What a life.
whats life, whats death,
The heart does everything it wants, instantly, the way it starts and stops
fragile heart
Broken.
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I get the same feeling too.It is so scary,sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night soaked in cold sweat.So I started drinking large amounts of vodka to calm my nerves and to numb my mind.Actually to be honest with u,I m drunk the whole day sometimes on vodka and sometimes on whiskey.I don’t have anything to live for.For me life is a cycle of failures and regrets.
O thankgoodness someone felt that too….
Yes tons of nightmare id rather be awake,
Vodka…? Dont you ever feel ure enough of it, like it never does really work but drowning yourslf, making days like years and meaningless…. That does good for calming, just be careful if you drink too much
And btw, feeling free to chat, id like someone to chat with inthe midnights, to get me away from everythg here, life sucks
I will chat with u whenever u want.I never had any friends throughout my entire life,I want to make a friend at least during the last few days of my life.And u r so right,after a while the vodka doesn’t even numb the pain.I guess I have reached my end.
Ill be glad to be the one, a friend in need, a friend indeed..? Still hope things get better for you, do you have any other social apps or what to chat with
Well,I had but I closed all my accounts when I attempted to hang myself few nights ago.Thank u for being my friend.
Hope ure okay, never would anyone want you to try hurt yrslf or attempt another suicide
Sorry Luke. Last night I put a noose around my neck and tied it to the window. But I got so terrified.
I feel very sad to hear about it,little ray.So did your fiance finally recognized his mistake? Is he sorry now?
Yup. I finally packed of all my stuff and left him. Left him crying. Let’s just say that before I left I gave him a piece of my mind. .ok not a piece..it was for an hour. He was totally shocked cuz he never thought I’d leave. Nway thats a closed chapter for now. Am trying to stay positive..hope your better today! 🙂
I m very proud of u little ray.I m really happy for u today.He got what he deserved.I have never been happy for the past say 8-9 months but after hearing your reply I felt that sometimes a best thing can come out of even the worst circumstances.I want to u to cheer up and be positive like this throughout the rest of your life.Take good care of yourself,littleray and remember during dark times,sometime we just need a little ray to light up our world.