I don’t know what happened to me. I don’t know why all I can feel is cold and anger and sadness towards everyone, even those that I actually care about. Problem is, I don’t think the even care for me anymore.
I don’t think I have anyone who cares for me anymore. If everyone were to pick someone they’d hang out with, I’m no one’s first choice. I don’t even know if I’m still in the choices.
Funny, though. People think I have so many other friends to hang out with, when it truth, I’m alone. I’m always alone. Not that I’m here to beg […]
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Im so fucking depressed, i dont know how anyone could even help me. Last week my bf broke up with me and ive been in denial ever since, and it just now it hit me. I am so devistated.
Weekends are the worst, I use to come home and cry, now i just lay in the bed and the strangest part is my mind is blank, no thoughts, my eyes open and i just lay here while the world goes about itself, im becoming numb, lonelieness in all honesty the worst feeling in the entire only, its similar too that of losing someone or something you love, its a feeling of utter hoplessness, im scared to death i may never be happy again, i’ll never meet someone who loves me, i’ll never have a normal social life,
I went to the mall today like […]
I’m in a situation where I don’t really have anyone to talk to on a personal level, I mean there is my family but… they’re more of a ‘You can solve it with a positive attitude!’ people… and I don’t really want to burden any of my friends since they have their own stuff to worry about… I know I should probably see a proffesional but that would require telling my family where I’m going so I can’t…
Really I just kinda want to vent what I’m thinking to see if that helps me, so here it is, I guess:
I don’t know how to feel anymore, I […]
I just found this website and saw that many people write on here and I decided to do the same. Unlike most of you guys here, I’m a freshman, in high school. When I was small I was born with a defect to my eyes and I realized that this little boy in second grade? was an asshole to me. I also realized that one of my teacher I thought was one of my best teachers also treated me unfairly. In fifth grade, my classmates would always call me ugly and some talked about my eyes. They didn’t really bully me but yea. In seventh […]
Everyones still playing me like im fucking stupid and i dont know anything about it. My mom thinks having a job is going to keep me from being depressed. No, sorry its not that simple. Im starting to hate these people more then i did before. I cant wait untill im gone. Everyone gets a free day to talk shit about me, and they act like i dont know where there going. I dont understand why do the people who are the closest to you, and who are supposed to love you have to be the same people who make you feel the worst about […]
After lurking for a few months this is my first post here, let me just apologise beforehand for any spelling and grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.
i wish my parents were already dead so i could just go ahead and off myself, they have been so good to me throughout life i feel i can’t put them through the pain and grief of losing their only son.
But i dont know how much longer i can take this.
I don’t know what the hell I’m doing anymore. Almost feels like I am just wasting life away. I have no idea what I want to do in life. I thought I had it figured out in high school, but when I realized I wasn’t able to afford university, I felt depressed. The reason I got good grades in school was to get into university; now I had to settle with community college. And if I was going to community college, what was the point of getting good grades? What’s the point of straight A’s if you go to community college? They don’t care. When […]
I honestly dont think i will ever be happy! i try so hard to be happy, i really do but i have too many problems. im too stressed and depressed! i dont know how to deal with it anymore. i honestly feel like i have nobody! theres nobody for me to talk to about how i feel, i dont know how to talk to my friends and family about how im feeling so i usually just keep it all bottled up inside. and it has all just gotten too much me! i need someone to talk to, someone that will help and be there for […]
but i dont know how.
cant bring myself to figure it out.
my total lack of motivation knows no bounds.
sit here. sit here. sit here.
Psych class was pretty amazing. Learned that I’ve been having panic attacks and that it’s a thing that’s gonna keep appearing so I’m definitely going to talk to my psychologist about it and see what he has to say about that.
It’s very difficult to share something I enjoy with my family, especially with my mom. I try to tell her about how class went and what I learned and keep her informed that more stuff will keep pilling up with my depression … “You can change it, yeah it’s chemical reactions and all but you are able to control your thoughts and everything else that […]
Hidden beneath the pile of forbidden fruit
Lies emotions that whisper nothings sweet and crude
an attitude of lust and a beauty everlasting
brings with it the terror of an unexpected sting
the warm rush of feelings never felt
hand of avarice and wickedness ive been dealt
no doubt that i dont know what lifes all about
but i wear a mask and play the part and pretend to know the route
existence is the devils mistress and you wont be remiss to hear me say i dont miss this
the heart wants what it wants so get a grip
blood to spill and im insatiable ill take it all drip by putrid drip
a skip […]
Hey guys,
Anyone from India here??
Specifically around the Delhi region.
Btw, i dont know if this kinda post is allowed or not so, if it’s not can the moderators please make an exception for this one???
Thanks.
Hey guys.
I have been in this sad mood since like forever. Sure, I’d laugh and smile, but when its me, and i am alone, my thoughts take over.
I am convinced that i am useless and basically nothing more than a burden and cause of irritation and frustration to the people around me.
So, i thought a lot, a lot about suicide, i even started to cut myself, i have stopped now though.
But i guess, i still wanna die.
Anyone know how to get over that fear of dying?? Like, i am afraid of the pain it takes and because i dont know what happens after i die.
Help, […]
Sometimes i wanted to end up this socalled life, sometimes im so scared about death, about the hell we sorta know less about.
and every night, like EVERY NIGHT, when i think about loads of worries, and all those problems of the years ive been thru i feel like shit, i dont know but i think its the uncertainty, which scares most humans, i dont know what am i doing tomorrow, my hearts pounding so loud, yet sorry not fast, thats the point which scared me like hell, i thought id die every single night, freaking creepy and i wont even kno im dead the other […]
i have been suicidal since i was honestly 8 but i had to take care of my mother and now shes fine and i want to finally fufill my wish to die but i dont know if i could do it alone or at all, i keep hoping things are going to get better but they never do, am i crazy? i dont know but if anyone in the texas area is looking for a possible suicide partner im here. i keep switching between wanting to do it and looking foward i need somone to do it with me for me to be able to […]
Its so strange that i have a wife and 2 beautiful children and to anyone else they would think i have nothing to be depressed about but it doesnt work like that, i do love my children but i dont chose to have the feelings i do, it just happens and i cannot shake the dark days.
I did love my wife and hope i still do, by that i mean the depression is so overpowering it can cloud how i really feel about people so i dont know my feelings which is worse than knowing you do or dont love someone.
I often feel […]
im never good enough for anybody, im always sad. most of my friends are gone, i dont know what i do. i think a lot about death but never had the courage to fulfill it.
I’m so exhausted and lonely. I am so alone. I just want to cut open my wrists. All I do is have pain. Fb’s come and go. No family. I guess god wants me to come home? i don’t know. all i see is a bad future. where i live is such hell. a woman actually posted a “go away” sign on her door. i can hear the new neighbor laughing thru the walls. wish she would shut up, wish i wasnt crying. i dont know how to keep doing this. tried to call a friend, she’s always busy. this is not a life. so […]
. i just wish i could connect with someone. i dont know if i have much time left with my internet. Also, im not sure if i have much of my particular life left. I wish i could say something meaningful right now, something that i can give to the world, before i pass away either from heartache, or from some other reason.
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