I don’t know

Recently my girlfriend of around 3 years just broke up with me. You can say our relationship was an odd one being that it was an online relationship. I even went and visited her for the first time recently. Time I spent with her was the greatest moments in my life. I am completely in love with her and she even said she loved me. Entire time I was with her felt like a dream. But she broke up with me after all of that. I feel lost, I simply given up caring about my own life. I have stopped taking my medication, often starving myself because I lack the care to eat. my daily life is now, wake up, go to work, come home and lay in bed, wait till time to sleep and then sleep. My life has no more meaning I lack the will to do anything else, I am seriously hoping that without my medication I will just die. I have already gathered rope and sleeping pills and other multiple ways to end my life. But knowing that there no 100% guarantee any of my plans would work I cant go ahead with such ideas. I simply don’t know what to do anymore with my life.