Wish I wasn’t a wussy

I contracted an STD from an ex about 8 months ago (always use a condom, even for blowjobs!), it’s chronic pain in my dick among other things.  The doctors are no help and I’m having trouble sleeping!  I’ve also had severe anxiety and depression most of my life, on the positive side my family is not too bad.  Grew up in a nice house, family vacations, blah blah blah, but what I wanted most that I never received was love!  I mean I got some love but I feel like they didn’t want to exert the effort, I guess I can blame that on both my parents working 12 hr days.