Don’t I deserve to be happy?

I told them I wanted to leave. It didn’t have to be far away, just away from here.

I need help and I know it. They know it. Everyone seems to know it.

I can’t get help while being here.

I’m becoming a monster. Aggressive, verbally abusive to others, physically abusive towards myself. I’ve just about given up on myself. And all anyone cares about is that fact that if I leave, it’s like I’m abandoning them. THEM!

Like, aren’t they abandoning me by only caring about themselves? They aren’t looking out for my best interest. I could kill myself right now and all they would care about is how no one will listen to their crap like I did.

Don’t I deserve to get the help I need? Don’t I deserve to be happy??

Yours Always and Forever,

The Girl Who Just Wants To Be Happy