Nothing to look forward to.
Nothing to keep me strong.
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She died alone, her last few days on earth
caged. Knowing this, my heart breaks.
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The stars were never meant for me to see.
Just a shit hole, that is what will always be.
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Many, many times I passed up security for true love, because I wanted love that was passionate and consuming. It has been almost two years, and only within this past month, I begun to heal in some way from him.
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She died lost and scared, thrown away. Her body tossed into the incinerator.
Knowing this, my heart cannot bear.
I have nothing of hers to hold.
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It is best to keep pain inside, always.
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I tried to survive when I have given up all hope.
And hope has been taken away once again from me.
Hope was an illusion. In a circle I will always be.
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I wanted her ashes, a physical piece of her to hold to my heart for a moment.
But there is nothing.
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No one.