Hello whoever is reading this.
I hope your life, day, week, hasnt been shitty like some people on here. I know i shouldnt sound so selfish but god i cant take any of this anymore. Does anyone understand how hard it is looking in the mirror HATING what you see? because trust me i know the feeling. You look in the mirror and all your fears just get bottled up and thrown at you, right? I dont know if its just me, or society creating this image in my head of how i should look. I am 5’7 and weigh 128.2 pounds. i use to weigh 145 about a month ago. I just dont know how i should react around everyone anymore. I lost all my friends because they got sick of my negativity. So now i just stay home everyday. My parents are close to a divorce because my sister was depressed, my brother does drugs, my dads anorexic, and my mom has a sickness. Meanwhile im in the corner cutting my skin open on a daily, but dont worry the middle child is never important. It really sucks just knowing your worthless. Really really sucks.
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you aren’t! you have worth you have self awareness and that’s a huge thing!
YOU ARE IMPORTANT. I am nearly crying as i read this, i want you to know despite how fucked up everything is around you, you need to find a place where you feel most at ease. Separated from friends; family- Everyone. Where it be at the beach- your favorite local coffee shop- Anywhere. AND Talk to your friends. Tell them you need them. More than anything, especially at such a dark point in your life. Real friends don’t ditch another JUST because one isn’t being seriously happy ALL the time. Its impossible. Your human, when you feel something- you feel something.