Everything has been a downward’s spiral. I don’t really want to do anything anymore, I’m too sad. I don’t want to go to work, I don’t want to pack my things for going back to school next week, I don’t want to leave my hometown, but I don’t want to stay. It’s like I need to get away from here because I’m more hurt than not over recent events, but I don’t have anything waiting for me at school either. Unless you count my ex who probably won’t want me back anyway because I gained weight this summer. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to miss.
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know the feeling completely. your ex sounds alittle shallow though
He is, he’s been absolutely horrible to me. But he’s one of my only friends at school
I’m sorry, dead. Don’t worry about the weight gain though, I totally know the feeling. It’s not a big deal, and if you work hard you can lose it again, no problem :).
I know I can and I will when I get back to school within a few months it just sucks all the hard work I put last year to lose it was wasted
Personally, I think things like weight gain, dropping grades, absence of friends can all take a back seat when it comes to your happiness.
First and foremost, if you are content and happy and motivated, most of the things fall in place.
Cus rest of the stuff can be done anytime you wish, like you can change your life anytime you wish, but stuff like depression, anxiety takes time to recover from. And doesn’t entirely depend on ones self.
So, good luck
And i know exactly how you feel, except the boyfriend part, cus firstly, i am a straight boy, and secondly i haven’t had a girlfriend yet. But the rest of the stuff i know.
Yeah I know it’s just something that sucks like I have a really distorted body image supposedly, as do most females, but the weight gain really brought me down like oh no one wants me around anymore because I’m gross so I’ll just lay in bed and do nothing all day
If your ex really behaves like that he really isn’t your friend or he’s just an idiot (or both). In fact if he’s an idiot and he’s perceived as such, he could pretty much be a part of your “not having many friends problem”.
We all gain/lose weight at several points in life, i remember that when i was obese in my teenage years i used to think everybody hated me because of it and nobody wanted to be around me… when it was quite the opposite, i drove them away because i believed those things (and they weren’t true, i realized that when i dropped the weight). If it really bothers you it’s not so hard dropping some pounds, but there’s always a chance that your distorted body image is playing with your head more than anything (and actually it happens to boys too).
For sure. And I’m never saying my ex is a good person, he’s just a safehouse kind of thing, someone I can go to (sometimes). We’re in a good place now I think, as friends. But he’s not the reason I don’t have friends, I just haven’t found the right people. I have one girl I’m good friends with but we don’t hang out much so it’s like ehhh I’m alone most of the time. We’re just really busy. And weight does have impact like when I lost a lot of weight people definitely wanted me around more and stuff because “another pretty face” meanwhile if you’re not it’s like I’m not someone who pops in their head to hang out.
dead, I really like the way you talk. It reminds me of someone I used to know, to the point where I’m like 5% sure I know you. But I probably don’t lol. Aaanyways, sorry if that ended up being kind of creepy… uh, but once classes start, you’ll have a new opportunity to get to know people, and maybe that’ll lift the depression a bit? I mean, I usually make friends in class. Not tight friends, but meh, acquaintances I can work with, which is good enough for me. I don’t really believe in making really close friends. That kind of thing just never happens, tbh, don’t you think? But I hope it does for you, since you seem to be a cool person.
it’s not creepy. and I dont’ really make real friends in class, i don’t like acquaintances, i like having true friends. And we can talk more, i like you too (: I’m drinking so I’m sorry I don’t have more to reply.