So, this is very different than any other of my posts,
but I have been experiencing some “feelings” and I cannot find a name to these symptoms.
I feel like I can communicate with an outer me, such as if I had a twin, it’s very strange, it started with mirrors, and now I feel like I am not alone, although I am sitting in my room alone, such as another person is her. (Another version of myself.)
I have experienced this before, but only when I have been exhausted, and/or when I go from being surrounded by people for a long/short period of time, to be alone again, I feel as if the people I was surrounded by are still with me. (Not like anything supernatural, not like being in the presences of ghost.)
And I’d even hold conversations with those people before I would realize they were not actually there, this mainly happens when I am exhausted, like in a dreamlike state.
I do believe that I have decreolization/depersonalization disorder, could this be a part of that?
Does anyone else experience this?
Or have any idea what this could be?
Thank you for reading/responding! Always appreciated, if you have any information, please, don’t be afraid to comment!
(Added in August 11, 2015 at 1:24 AM)
I might also add that sometimes when I am sleeping, I will wake up and have “hallucinations”, they are never anything scary, for example, last night I woke up and saw a balloon, with scribbling of “happy birthday” or something, on the side of it, quickly drift from the end of my bed, to the top of the curtain rod on the window right next to my bed. These “hallucinations” don’t scare me anymore, since I have had them so many times, but it is as if I cannot keep my eye off whatever is moving, I can reach for it, try to touch it, but it has no feeling, also I cannot go back to sleep until the “hallucination” is done, and sometimes I decide to stay awake after. Could this be related to the other experiences I have mentioned previously? I mainly see balloons, it seems, but I have even seen a roll of tape before. (Weird, I know.) Also they are mainly always black, the one I had last night was colored, which is rare.
Sorry for throwing a bunch of “symptoms” at you guys, but I figured that since they all seem to be along the same lines of “hallucinations”, I might as well list them all.
Please comment if you have any information or have experienced some of the same things! Thank you!
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Yes there are some ideas. Talking to people after they’ve gone, you may be feeling their energies. Every person who we get to know makes an invisible energetic bond, sometimes it’s possible to break it but I haven’t figured out how to do that intentionally. Or in layman’s terms it’s your subconsciousness dealing with unfinished business – putting thoughts in place.
The part about talking to yourself is called the Shadow. It’s the dark part of your soul, every human has an Animus and Shadow. Its a concept from a philosopher called Jung, you might wanna read up on it
OMG. DeathDreamer? Are you the original? Everyone was wondering what had happened to you, I don’t remember seeing you here for a long time. I don’t know if it’s a bad sign for you if you’ve returned to this site, but it’s nice to see you’re still alive.
Yea it’s me. I took some alone time and it did me well, I truly recommend. But I am humbled that you noticed my abscence :> Wish you well.
I know this may sound strange, but what you just said about the shadow being negative, I had first noticed it in my reflection and it startled me because it seemed as if I was looking at something…. evil? I was honestly afraid of having to see my reflection, but then I seemed to embraced it, when I felt the same “presence” while not looking at my reflection. Thank you so m uch for commenting! I will research the shadow theory more!
I know this may sound strange, but what you just said about the shadow being negative, I had first noticed it in my reflection and it startled me because it seemed as if I was looking at something…. evil? I was honestly afraid of having to see my reflection, but then I seemed to embraced it, when I felt the same “presence” while not looking at my reflection. Thank you so m uch for commenting! I will research the shadow theory more!
It doesn’t sound like depersonalization (which I have been diagnosed with). It is more like dissociative personality disorder or rather extreme exhaustion.
I didn’t think it sounded like decreolization/depersonalization disorder, but I thought in a more extreme case it could be possible to experience what I am experiencing, since some people have reported viewing their body from and outside source. Thank you for the input. 🙂 I will look into dissociative personality disorder.
KissOfDeath, The shadow is NOT evil but it channels evil. That was the mistake I made initially, I tried to reject it completely. It is not so black and white – the animus is one part of the soul and it cannot live without the shadow – also known as the YinYang. However the shadow does not know the difference between right and wrong and it sources evil because it has no boundaries for emotions such as anger and pain, which when twisted become what we know as ‘evil’.- that is what you probably saw in the mirror. It also holds all the creativity and its pure gold in its essence, if you read more in Jung’s theory, he explains it there in detail
Okay. Thank you, I started reading a lot about it the other night. 🙂