This is the first year where I will not have a family to celebrate my birthday with. I’ve received a card in the mail every single year from my parents, respectively, and this year, I won’t get that. I won’t get anything. Not that I need to receive something for my birthday but I’ll be completely alone.
The cuts of the one group of people who are supposed to love me no matter what are deeper than any knife or blade. What am I to do?
I can already feel my soul ripping apart. It’s going to hurt and it’s going to cause me to slip even farther into my depression. I don’t know if I’ll make it past my birthday. I’m already dead.
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I’ve read some of your previous posts, it’s unfortunately not enough to make me know you. I can’t really relate to your experiences either but I know that a family by blood is not always to trust, and I believe you need to create your own life. What would you like to do?
I don’t know what to say to help you, so I’d just give you a big hug if I could. My birthday is coming too, just a few days left… I remember that I never thought that I’d turn 20 someday. I thought I’d die before that, I was so sure… I tried my best to die btw. At least that’s what I thought… So I know you probably think that you won’t be here to celebrate many birthdays in the future, but hopefully yes, you will and they’ll be better ones.