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The Stars are Too Bright Not to be Seen

by every_nightfall 3/9/2017

written by every_nightfall

A few days ago, a classmate noticed the cuts on my wrist.

Today, a friend of mine saw the cuts too.

I told them it was nothing, that I only got them for being mean to cats (Don’t get me wrong, I love cats.). I know what I said was such an awful thing to say especially when even you can see the truth beyond your own lie. It’s just that I couldn’t quite think of anything to use as an alibi anymore.

I’m afraid sooner, more people would start to notice the slashes on my wrist and think I’m a weirdo, or worse they might think I’m someone […]

3/9/2017 4 comments

should i?

by catsnap24 7/31/2016

written by catsnap24

school starts tomorrow. i want to bring my blade with me. if i do it, it will hurt the person i love. but i love doing it! the only thing i regret is hurting her. i wish i could take all the hurt away and have it all on me. first day back tomorrow maybe a bloody smiley on my skin is just what i need.

7/31/2016 6 comments

I cant stop

by kupo95 5/14/2016

written by kupo95

I been cutting again I dont know why I thought I stoped but all of a sudden the razor blade was in my hand and I mad three small cuts no biggie. but becuase my body was acting before my brain I cut deep I was wearing a cardigan and I soaked the inside of it with blood . today I woke up to the devil yelling again Im shit Im lazy worthless I using her for money I am taking advantage her ……..I dont want me kids to be them wich I never said out of my mouth only on sp so What the […]

5/14/2016 2 comments

Used to Be

by NicoleK 5/5/2016

written by NicoleK

Just a song a wrote a few years ago after having my heart broken by a stupid boy…I was reminiscing on what it was like when I had the creativity to write, and it felt good to play. This recording is rough, and I messed up obviously a few times, but doing it has helped to curb the pain today.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Used-to-Be-5_5_16-12.52-PM.m4a

Verse
Sometimes I try too hard
It never gets me very far
And this whole darn world could stop
And I’d never know
‘Cause I’m watching you go
And I don’t wanna settle back down
Into being by myself
‘Cause this whole darn world would […]

5/5/2016 7 comments

My cuts and my voice

by NoMoreHopeLeft 4/27/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

Damn.
Someone saw it. A classmate of mine saw the cuts. Actually – thank god – just one, and also not my deepest one.. – thank God for it –
Well she was asking like: “Wow, this looks pretty much like you cut yourself, hahaha! Where’d you get this from?!”
And I, just desperately trying to bring her away from this thought, as I never want anyone to see, especially not her, I dunno, I kinda don’t trust her really, (don’t wanna sound mean though, but unfortunately I have a problem with trusting anyway…), was like: “Huh, where the hell did I got this from?!” […]

4/27/2016 5 comments

Anger

by JiminyCrispies 4/24/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I wrote 2890 words in 68 minutes. It’s for my essay that has a word limit of 2000, and it’s still not finished. I only stopped because my laptop died and I’ve lost the charger. Usually it would take me between 2-3 hours to finish it. I did it in 1. One of the only upsides to all this energy right now.

I have college tomorrow, the essay was due in last Monday and I was off so I needed it for tomorrow morning. Oh well.

I was talking to an old friend online earlier. Needlessly to say, they are barely my friend right now. They said […]

4/24/2016 1 comment

What if?

by kupo95 4/19/2016

written by kupo95

I am sitting here wondering if I cut again what will they do If they see and I told them the fact i did it on purpose…or if I try to kill myself and I fail what on earth will they do?

Before me husband threaten to to tell my dad and brother but he not talking to my family but have to live with his . I really dont give two flying fucks if he tells his parents I would love to see there recations.

they talk about it….it would look bad on there part becuse every one we know ..knows im not like that or […]

4/19/2016 4 comments

How do I tell them

by brxken._.lxcks 4/1/2016

written by brxken._.lxcks

Now that summer is coming I’m going to have to start wearing short sleeves so at one point I’m either going to have to tell my parents or they will find out about the scars that I have made on my wrist. I want to tell them that I have been doing it to myself but I don’t know how to tell them, and when I do tell them they are going to tell my whole family. And if my whole family find out they are going to start asking me questions all the time, and watching everything I do. It will make me even […]

4/1/2016 3 comments

by K.J 3/29/2016

written by K.J

Ever since I could remember I have been bullied and made a social out cast not only at school but at home as well. My father is a bad man and he has since been put in jail. My older two brothers aren’t exactly model siblings, and my mum takes all her anger and frustration out on me, even though I’m not a defiant child.

So as far back as I can remember I have felt these depressing feelings and have suffered from many mental illnesses. My mother, whom does not believe in that kind of thing, has been emotionally and physicaly abusing me since I […]

3/29/2016 2 comments

Friends

by lulereign 3/22/2016

written by lulereign

I feel that friendship is more fragile and more important compared to a relationship. I don’t know, but it’s like whenever my friends suddenly act cold, it hurts so fucking bad I just add a few more cuts just to be able to feel. Fucking hell it makes no sense.

Honestly, it really fucking terrifies my how much of a hold this person has over me. All she has to do is say a word, and I think I’ll just fucking crumble. She’s not even the person I’m in a relationship with. But I’d rather lose him than her. It’s really difficult and just tiring to […]

3/22/2016 1 comment

That feeling

by Drowning 2/27/2016

written by Drowning

its weird how a few cuts to the wrist can take away so much pain from inside can distract my mind from eating me alive for them few moments everything is ok I’m in control I feel alive its proberly the only time I actually feel comfortable with myself until I stop all my problems seem to go away but the demons will be back soon And il get lost in my thoughts once again

2/27/2016 4 comments

Things that I am sick of…

by ImSurroundedByIdiots 2/18/2016

written by ImSurroundedByIdiots

Staring at these same walls day after day.

Having to eat every day. I hate being hungry. Why can’t I eat once every six months or so?

Getting hair cuts.

Being told it will get better.

Living in the U.S. with all these hateful, ignorant, uber-competitive, loud mouths.

Being misunderstood.

Basically being human or even existing.

I really don’t think I was meant to be human. I hate them so. Yet I must rely upon them.

Please. I just want the sadness and misery to end.

please

2/18/2016 7 comments

Hiding cuts?

by NoMoreHopeLeft 2/7/2016

written by NoMoreHopeLeft

Anyone out there who could tell me how to hide cuts when wearing a swimsuit/top?
I cut myself mostly just on the shoulder to prevent that people see it because then I can wear at least most T-Shirts without any problem… But now I realized that it is WAY more problematic to hide them if I need to wear a swimsuit or whatsoever. On my wrists I can cover the cuts with bracelets and stuff like this, but how can I hide them on the shoulder? Without being noticeable? My family mustn’t see what I did, so does anyone has an advice for me?

2/7/2016 14 comments

Damn it -_-

by shatterediris 2/1/2016

written by shatterediris

Welp tonight I drank about a quarter of a bottle of coricidin so that’s like what only 2 or 3 doses? I feel terrible…… I can barely stay awake, yet I can’t sleep…… It’s not pleasant, yet it is. I like this drowsyness, yet still being alert…… But I did cut myself though, that’s not exactly great…… Right before a potential job interview too (for a dishwashing position) I will probably need to show my forearms since I will probably be expected to wear short sleeves, it’s easy to do with people I don’t care about, but still these are larger than normal…. There aren’t […]

2/1/2016 10 comments

Not sure what to do

by shatterediris 1/29/2016

written by shatterediris

Hello everyone, I’m new here.

I really don’t know where to start, there are so many things I wish I could tell people. I feel that this place can at least give me an opportunity to share these things with others, it may feel better. I do hope that this isn’t viewed as whiny or awkward, and I’m sorry if I upset anybody. Also I guess I should warn that may go into shallow detail about self harm…. ((frequency and desires)not sure if that’s something I should warn about at the top of the post or not)

So mostly I just sort of want to tell somebody […]

1/29/2016 11 comments

Horrible Day

by Ylem 1/17/2016

written by Ylem

Just decorated my thigh with 275 cuts, still the pain doesn’t go away. What do I have to do then? I hate feeling this way.

1/17/2016 19 comments

My Dark Place

by fallenstars101 1/14/2016

written by fallenstars101

As I was walking through the old hallway of my high school, my former teacher stopped me. She told me that I looked different, that something just didn’t resemble the same girl she once had in her classroom.

I looked at her confused and asked what she meant. She told me that she remembers the way I acted during freshman-junior years and that’s how I seemed to be now.

She explained to me that during my senior year she could see that I was in a happy place and I was content with the life I had adapted to. She asked me if I had returned to […]

1/14/2016 2 comments

My suicide attempts

by depressednerd 1/9/2016

written by depressednerd

hi my name is Santos and this is going to be about my suicide attempts .

My first suicide attempt was August 3rd I rememberthat threw that time I was going threw major depression I would always cut myself and I would always hear how my parents thought I was worthless and my dad just that day slapped me and I got really sad and went online and read threw my ask. Fm comments and most of them were really bad some would say u have now friends u dumb fuck or others would say u look like a pig so I […]

1/9/2016 1 comment

That Pain

by Kninea 1/5/2016

written by Kninea

Hi, call me Kninea, and no that’s not my real name. We were told to not use them so this is my username now. Some of you have found this website the same way I did. Through a book, things like smooth passages. I have dealt with my own version of depression. Hasn’t everyone at least once in their life? I, myself, have fleeting moments of depression, but those moments are almost unbearable. I have decided to tell you my opinion on depression. I, honestly, have contemplated suicide, but I wouldn’t want my family to go through the pain I go through. That’s the only […]

1/5/2016 2 comments

I want to bleed

by Ylem 12/31/2015

written by Ylem

Today is my birthday. I’m officially 22. I was born around 7 in the evening, only lived about 5 hours of 1993. What the fuck is so damn happy about it?

I have been trying to make the most of this day. I took a walk with my sisters to the park. Played on the swings like an 8 year old. I remember when I was that young. I chased around my little sister and nephew. It helped me forget for a moment.
I forgot that deep down inside, I’m fucking furious. Just that moment.

The urge to cut has been growing intensely. I don’t want to […]

12/31/2015 2 comments

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