Yall remember those “friends” I made in the god damn psyche ward? Well I added Sarah and John on Facebook from that ward and exhanged numbers. Not only have they not returned my calls BUT I looked on my Facebook page and fucking beautiful! They both denied me. Couldn’t have fucked me over better myself! See? Fake people! No wonder I’m a god damn recluse. As for my “fishing buddy” Mitchell, never could get ahold of him ether. Well fuck me!
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I don’t think that means they’re fake. Maybe they just want to start their lives again apart from the world they were living in before? Where did you guys meet? A psych ward. Some people would try to distance themselves from things or people that remind them of that place. Idk… Just my idea. I understand how bad you probably feel, but I think there’s a real reason why they “rejected” you — it wasn’t rejecting you as person; they rejected a situation and a place.
I dunno we had such a connection in the psyche ward. In fact, the thing that helped me the most was interacting with people and thinking I’d have life long friends from there. We meet at the psyche ward. Hipster John was my roommate, Mitchell was the guy who wanted to take me hunting and fishing, and Sarah was the chick who was manic. I get really close to people and I was hoping they would get close to me. Was all those goodbye hugs even genuine? I’m sure if I meet them on the street and not a psyche ward they would probably reject me too. it just astounds me. I listened to people’s problems, always helped others etc. my trust in people is once again shattered. I bet if I looked like John Stamos they would all be just itching to be my friend and Sarah would be all over me. The rest of this decade should be interesting. I don’t even got alcohol today. Guess it’s 10 more years of self Imposed isolation and paranoia. Oh well. Right now I’m more pissed off than depressed over it – sure the depression will hit soon too.
I’ve learned to never have expectations when it comes to people, this way you can never be let down and made to feel the way you do now.
Very true
i agree with this
I did the best I could. I was incredibly nice to everyone in that ward, volunteered to help others, validated, listened. Guess I’m gonna isolate myself again because like I said in other posts – isolation is much better than rejection. I also filled out a form for housing assistance so I can drink when ever I want instead of having to drink water (cooers light) once a week and be my own person. Also gonna get my drivers license soon. I popped 5 xannyz so I should be iight for a few hours.
yep, isolation over everything. I find that when it comes to psychological issues, everyone wants to help but nobody’s got the remedy, so they end up being more of an annoyance than anything else. Best to just self-medicate and leave everyone else to live out their phony little lives.
You’re one of the people who’s been lucky to respond to treatment quickly, and I think you should be making the most of that. Honestly I think if you let this be a reason to get back into your regular habits and ways of thinking, you’re only going to end up damaging yourself. You have a real chance of feeling better quickly if you keep looking for help. I know what it’s like to make attachments quickly, and it must be really hard to feel rejected like that – but most of those people will be going through one of the worst times in their life, if they’re suicidal they’re going to be at high risk, they might be repairing relationships with family members… They might have found their stay there hell and not want to see people because it would remind them of the place. The thought of having a connection to that place or the way they felt at their worst might scare them or their family members. They might be embarrassed and not want people to know they were there because of the stigma. I think they could have done more than just deny the request, but you can’t rely on people after a few days knowing them. Rejection is really hard but you’re one of the most popular people here, and people liked you there whether they stay in your life or not… Lots of people won’t ever experience those kinds of connections. For people who think isolation is best, well, we’re on a suicide site… People get depressed when they’re isolated from the rest of humankind. If you expect everything or nothing from everyone you talk to and get on with, you’ll be disappointed a lot. If you find a support/social group you’ll find people like you, who want to get to know you. Being in a mental ward is a horrific disruption in a lot of people’s lives. Chances are they aren’t rejecting you – just that place.
It’s the old trick. They say, “Hey! We should meet up sometime soon and hang out.”
Then you’ll agree but a tiny voice in your head says, “They’re just saying that to be nice.”
Weeks later and that voice was right. But that’s just my experience.
We’ve both had shitty days fabulous and yeah man fuck people I don’t trust them for shit it’s all about how far ahead you can get now a days
Screw people. People suck. Don’t trust them. Don’t expect anything of them. Just focus on yourself instead. But you may think, well, if people suck, why bother? Hmm i cant answer that because i hate people too.
Its a psych ward, so sorry to say, these people were most likely pretending to be nice to you, maybe because they were ‘feeling sorry for you’… Note the quotation marks. If they really gave a stuff they would explain why they don’t want to talk or spend time with you, instead of slamming a door in your face.
Never be too nice, people won’t ever appreciate it. Its a waste of time, unless you are talking to SP Members, then i don’t think its a waste of time
You can go to a psych ward, you can get rehabilitation, you can get treatment… You can do any of those things but it won’t fix anything. Why? Because this is not fixing the sick society. You DON’T need fixing, although alcoholism isn’t good.
I think the only valid reason to live if there is actually any DECENT reason to live. But with a sick society, that can’t be easy.
Truth hurts but your absolutely right! Everyone rejected me in the end. I’m sure the counsilers were just trying to give me compliments to try and boost my self esteem. To think I gave humanity another shot? What am i stupid? I ripped up all the phone numbers last night. Back to self imposed isolation I go
Not fake people, but if someone shot you with a crowbar you’d instantly get scared whenever you saw one. It’s a way of protecting themselves, because it’s likely they got to the psych ward for reasons completely different than yours. Not all of us are “in good terms” with death, and that plays a part as well.
Heck, they might have been instructed to avoid contact with other suicidal people by their therapists too (seen it happen).
** hit you with a crowbar. Actually if someone could shot you with a crowbar you’d never forget it, because that’s impossible, lol.
It takes a while to develop meaningful relationships bro. I wouldn’t take it personally. Like others have mentioned they have their own problems that might prevent them from reaching out to you.
Heck I’ve been at my current job for a few years and still don’t hang out with anyone outside work-in fairness I did in the past but those people moved on.
Good thing I already had my other friends to start with. It’s also tougher to make friends as you get older, people are in their own comfort zones and don’t want to get out of it much.