Selfish?

Suicide is just an act, no more important than raking a lawn or drinking a cup of tea. So, if you’re intent on drinking tea then someone screams at you, “Stop…don’t drink it!!!” Then you turn and look at that person and say, “Why? I’m just drinking tea.”
And they say, “no no no..don’t. I don’t like it when you drink tea. You could burn your mouth.”
You say, “Ya, but I happen to like tea and it’s my mouth. If I want to burn it, that’s my decision.”
And they say, “Ohhh, that’s just so wrong wrong wrong. Can’t you see people care about your mouth and if you burn your mouth. And I know you won’t like the taste of that tea anyway.”
And you say, “Oh…Puh-Leez!! This is my choice, my tea, my mouth and I’m going to drink it. However, you’ve made me question my own decision now. Maybe I should think about this. I…I don’t know anymore if drinking tea is ok or not. Shit. You could be right?”
And they say, “Whewww…glad I could help change your mind. I was scared for a minute.”

If you 100% believe that suicide is your final and last and only option, then stop torturing yourself. But, because you’re still here and still trying for whatever reason then there’s hope that life will turn around. You’re doing something right because you’re still here. Give yourself some credit. Everyday you wake up and your feet hit the floor, you’re doing something good and fair for yourself. You’re beating the odds. You’re making it…slow and steady wins the race. One day, one hour, one minute, one breath at a time. Stay true to yourself, be fair to yourself, listen to yourself and you’ll be ok. Stay strong.