I loved him until my last breath. I’m just so tired of hurting people. I fucked up. I hurt him badly. I didn’t mean to. He made me feel like I was worth something. Like I could do anything. He was the only one who made me feel that way. He hates me now. That’s okay. I hate me too. I always have. He made the voices go away. He made the nightmares go away. But now they’re back and stronger than ever. There’s something mesmerizing about blood running down a shower drain. Getting a little dizzy.. Maybe this is it. I’m sorry. You guys were great, but I’m a fuckup. A lost cause. I’m done
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Be on the lookout for a new post from me Sammi, please.
Sammi, baby steps, girl. If he hates you, too bad for him. He doesn’t know what he’s lost. And if he really doesn’t hate you, I’m sure things between you two can be salvaged. Just talk to him, and make sure everything between you two is clear. Then find a way to go forward, either with him if possible / desirable, or without him if being with him is not possible.
I do not think it is your time to die, Sammi. To be honest, it really is not your time at all.
Oh sammi no. You are not a fuck up. And if you mean salt then you know he doesn’t hate you. Just the opposite. Sammi please don’t end your life.
Sammi, you can only be hurt by someone that you love, so he probably loves you and will probably forgive you if you apologize. I think you’re being way too hard on yourself.
Everyone makes mistakes, but what sets people apart is those who recognize they did something wrong to someone they cared for and tried to make amends.
Unlike a girl who I cared for recently in my life who left me for someone else and she was very callous about it as well. I think we had some misunderstandings, but she didn’t give me a chance to clear it up and things just got worse between us.
At least in your case you feel guilt over being wrong. Anyways, I don’t believe it’s your time to go either-certainly not like this-you can always find someone new, if it’s not going to work out with this guy. I’ll understand if you do decide to go-god knows I have my own reasons too, but I hope you don’t.
Salt is responsible for himself. You can’t shoulder his issues and yours. None of this is your fault. It’s not Salt’s fault either. People come together and lean on each other for support. When it ends blame doesn’t have to be assigned. Both of you are good people having a rough time. Give things a chance to settle down. Please?