Are we?
Few people that fairly close to me are calling me that. They didn’t say it directly to my face. I stumble upon their post on social media because apparently word just got out that I leave everyone because I have depression. And of course, just like any other community or society in these world, most of them thought that depression isn’t real. “It’s all in your head”. “Try and be happy”. “You need to have a reason to move forward”. You know the deal. All these motivational quotes they get on Pinterest/Tumblr.
It does, however, make me think. Do I (we?) really need the attention? Am I an attention seeker? Maybe I crave for certain specific people attention because some of them do make me feel better with their kind words. But honestly it didn’t really help that much doesn’t it? I’m happy when someone give me words of encouragement but it didn’t really fix me. I’ll be happy at that exact moment when they reach me but after a while, it’ll fade away. How the hell would they assume its an act of seeking attention when I never really told anyone about my depressions and suicidal thoughts?
Maybe if I’m really dead, then they will know its real and by then it’ll be too late. I don’t need your attention, your encouragements, your words of wisdom telling me you had it worst before. If I do want it, I would post every single details about my situation and smile happily because it get so many likes/retweets and be happy with fake internet points to keep me going. Funny thing is, non of them know what’s been bothering, what’s the trigger, why do I have suicidal thoughts. They just wanted to feel less guilty for not being there for me I guess. Or they just simply don’t care and wanted to feel superior because they felt like they have a much better life than me.
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Sorry there calling you that. Attention seekers are ones who are not really in pain, just looking for a reaction. No we are not attention seekers. Support seekers yes! But attention seekers no.
Yeah, really. Am I not worth getting any attention? I need some attention – or call it support, whatever – but, yeah, they can put down their phone, judgments, obsessions, and focus on something important – ME. (Not that I even want to be alive right now. No one cares until you’re gone, though. If then.)
Truth Seekers!
It is unfortunate that there exists people so petty they out things like this on social media. I don’t know what I would do if I got outed. It would be humiliating. My heart really goes out to you. I’m so sorry this is happening. But you are NOT an attention seeker if you are trying to get better. Those selfish twits need a wake up call that depression is a disease not a sophomoric way to get people to pay attention to you.
They were just mean. That’s low, man. So low.
For me, my depression was deeply personal, and in fact having ppl reach out or telling me they loved me made me feel.absolutely nothing, which ended up just making me feel worse.
Either way, if you feel something, express it and be honest, no matter how Facebook responds… Some ppl will understand, and try to support you, those are the people you need to have around you.
Be strong and nobody would ever be a ***** about someone getting hit by a truck wanting attention. Pain is pain.
And. If you know they would care when your gone, vive them thé chance to care now. Be open, but maybe just with the ppl u really trust.
Definitely not. I hate that I sometimes cry in public. I hate that I sometimes can’t speak. I hate when I am under a dark cloud.
Calling people with depression attention seekers is so hypocritical! When people get all dressed up in sexy clothes are they not seeking attention? How about celebrities, are they not seeking attention? What about people who are drama queens, are they not seeking attention? Oh, but if somebody who’s depressed wants some help, they’re attention seekers.
And as for “it’s all in your head”. Everything any human being ever thinks, says, does, or feels is in their head, because that’s where the brain is located.
Fyi, I am not putting down sexy dressers or celebrities. I am just saying that most people
are widely accepting of attention seeking, as long as it’s done for reasons they approve.
I once had a sexy dresser. It was oak and had four drawers. Never asked for attention either.