ive always felt ugly. i am fat and ugly. i recently lost a lot of weight. i went from weighing 180lbs to weighing 145lbs but now i weigh 160lbs and i am just so ugly and weak. food is my weakness. i love food but i hate it at the same time. this happens all the time. i lose the weight but then i gain a lot of weight, i dont know why. i hate the way i look. it depresses me, it really really depresses me. i cry about it all the time. my body is a big issue of mine. i just cant seem to be happy because of the way that i look, there are a lot of other reasons why i am so very unhappy but my body issues is my biggest issue. i need to lose weight for the air force and i know i can do it but im scared. i dont want to be fat and ugly and disgusting for the rest of my life. i started to look back at old pictures of myself and i looked terrible. my fat was everywhere, i knew i was big but damn i am huge adn ugly. i had the worst double chin. everyone sees that i am ugly, everyone sees that i am ashamed from it. i have no confidence because of it. i can lose the weight and i will lose the weight but my confidence is at a low right now. i was so depressed from looking at my old pictures that i had to throw up. thats how bad it is, i make myself sick. i am terrible.
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You can lose the weight. Have confidence in yourself, know that you can and you will accomplish it. Exercise and eat healthily, Lower your calorie intake, but not too much! If you do that then you will lose weight and be healthy. It’s okay to have body issues, we’re human, we all do. But if you ever feel that you’re not good enough, remind yourself that you are beautiful. You don’t have to be good enough. If you’re happy with yourself, that’s all that matters.
I hope you are happy with yourself after losing the weight. 🙂 You deserve that. Everyone deserves that.
Yep weight is very easy to put on and very hard to take off. You simply need a plan of action to get back to a normal size-with sensible dieting and exercise, you can get fit again.
Not to mention you don’t have to starve yourself-you can still eat fatty things, but limit them to a rare indulgence. I had a friend at work who cut his weight in half simply by getting rid of most carbs, within a few months he lost the weight.
In my case I’m about 30 lbs overweight-I actually plan to lose more but I’m going back to the gym on a daily basis and controlling what I eat. But the way, you can’t do it with dieting alone, you must exercise-which has many other amazing benefits as well (aside from just losing weight).
You are not ugly. I hate that society has brainwashed into thinking we are ugly because we aren’t a certain weight. I’ve had my share of body issues. But weight doesn’t prevent beauty. Even if there are assholes who think otherwise. My own grandma gives me shit about my weight. Its horrible. But you are not alone and you are not ugly.
I went from 325 to 212. Now I’m hovering at 227. Man, I hated my body so much! Ten years of feeling helpless and angry and out of control.
Get this: I have no freaking idea why I was able to lose weight. I tried and failed so many times! But one day I woke up and tried and it worked. I had setbacks, but, for a change, I didn’t give up. Instead of giving up on the Weight Watchers meetings somehow I kept going. Even though I felt like crying after every Jazzercise class, I didn’t give up. In the end I gave up a desk job and become a shifty eyed drifter to keep the weight off.
Somehow I stopped caring so much about how gross and nasty I was on the outside and started caring about the hurt and angry guy I was on the inside. JFC, if I could figure out how to do that for all my problems I’d be a demigod.
You’ve lost weight before… and not a tiny amount either! Good job. Yes, you have to try, try again. I think you can do it. Hell, I know you can do it! Yeah, it may be slow and sucky and pain in the ass to do, but put that on the scale and compare it to the weight of sadness and disgust you feel right now.
One of the big things I know is when you lose two one week and gain five the next, don’t beat yourself up. That shit happens all the time. It’s just part of the territory. Lordy lord, the week after WW gave me my 100 lbs lost keychain I gained 10! Oh I was so mad! But it turned out to be OK.
Good luck!
Everyone is different, but the thing is that you feel comfortable with yourself. I don’t think there’s any magic recipe to lose weight other than eating healthier/less and exercising on a regular basis.
That said, there’s this thing i did that helped me eat less (which most likely is so stupid that it won’t work on anyone but me, but worth trying): stop looking at food like a source of pleasure and try avoiding the foods that make you gain the most weight until you forget their flavors.
For some weird reason while avoiding some types of food i ended up doing that, and eventually i stopped having cravings because i just couldn’t remember the taste, and once i tasted them again they didn’t taste so good (because my whole preferences where altered by healthier foods). Like i said, stupid, but maybe worth trying (i lost half my body weight).
^ I’ve done exactly the same thing as Mf, and when I tried eating “junk food” that I previously enjoyed, it tasted much more bland and fake. That was a good thing because on the whole I felt much better. So yeah, I’d recommend that kind of “diet” as well.
I know your pain. I used to be morbidly obese I was 146kg. I’m down to 74 kg its taken me nearly 2 years but I finally feel that I’m there now, I’m happy with myself even if I’m still overweight for my height and age I should be 60-65kg max I don’t care. Anyway my secret was I found my emotional triggers. Every time I wanted to eat something that wasn’t good for me I’d ask myself do I really need that? Always the answer was no then I’d ask myself what emotion am I trying to hide? No doubt something always came up like I was lonely or sad about something that happened but then I’d force myself to think about that issue and actually deal with it not suffocate myself with food. Because you got to aadmit bad foods taste nice but you never feel good afterwards. I pretended I was skinny to and ate like I was. I never stopped eating “bad” foods and takeaways completely at first but instead of going to mc Donalds and getting 2 large big Mac combos I’d just get a cheeseburger and small fries from the kiddies menu. Lol but it done the trick and made me feel like I wasn’t being deprived of anything and so I didn’t feel like I’d go off the rails one day. I didn’t exercise hard out either just started walking.
I don’t know its just if I can lose weight oh gosh anyone can i was the fattest pig. Lol..
Good luck 🙂
I did the same as Mf partway through my weight loss (which took around 2 and a half years), which helped my eating habits a lot. I stopped buying junk into the house and tried to ignore it when other people did. Even now I sometimes want those types of food and I still have them occasionally, but usually I’m only remembering the emotional satisfaction that I used to have eating them. I stopped liking the taste long ago. I don’t often go to food to try to stop me being as depressed now, whereas it used to be something I did obsessively throughout each day. For a while I really couldn’t help myself. It took a long time to build healthier habits, but it’s possible. In my case, I learnt to cook (and destroyed half the pots and utensils in the kitchen) and usually had a healthy recipe that I wanted to try that day. I forced myself to exercise each day, which I loathed for several months and then began to enjoy – so it became the emotional relief that food used to be. I still found it hard the rest of the time, but eventually I started turning to things other than food.
I’m sorry you put some of the weight on again – I know that’s hard. I panicked like crazy when I started putting it on again. But you’ve kept a lot off as well. You know that you can lose more again, which means you’re in a good place mentally to start losing again, despite all the panic that you might not be able to change.
If you’re so unhappy generally, you’re probably seeing your weight as something much worse than it is. I understand that you need to lose it for practical reasons, but the weight doesn’t make you ugly. Even if you see your body in that way, it shouldn’t affect the person you, or others, see on the inside. That might sound cliched but it’s the truth. I know you can’t suddenly change the way you feel about it – I just want you to know that you’re the same good person inside and however ‘ugly’ you might think you are, it doesn’t change that.
You can improve your relationship with food. You can learn not to beat yourself up when you slip and eat something with thousands of calories in it, or when you binge-eat or get into bad habits or put on weight again. You’ll find that balance, and learn to get back to it if and when you get off track. You only recently lost the weight, and these are things that you learn over time if you keep practicing and try to keep calm and practical about it. You’ll slip up, and that’s okay. It’ll take time. Perhaps you could join a support group (either in RL or online) for people trying to lose or maintain weight, or build healthier eating habits. That isn’t something I did, but I think I could have done with someone to help me feel calm and put things into perspective for me when things weren’t going well. Encouragement always helps.
I hope losing weight will help you feel less ugly. I hope becoming happier will stop your looks seeming so important to you in the future, and help you feel more in control of your weight and eating habits. For now, don’t think of the rest of your life. Just try to lose that weight for the air force. It’ll give you some of your confidence back.
Sorry for leaving such a long comment. If you ever want some encouragement or any advice, feel free to get in touch. 🙂