Illness of Stress and Parents. Help Would Be Greatly Appricated

Stress has been making me feel ill lately. My chest feels tight, I’m more tiered than usual, my eating habits have declined, I’m more confined in my room, and my temper had been flaring on and off. The only things I can think about to get away from this is running away, or just ending it. But those are things I don’t want to do. But this “family vacation” we are taking in December is making me stressed to the point of feeling sick. Why you ask? Here is why-

One: The Plane Ride

Two: The Other Family

The other family is an ‘old family friend’ of ours. Whenever we go to visit my family, and the other family just ignore me, they throw me aside, and if I act or look angry, or not speak my father gives me a very hurtful tongue lashing that effects my mental stability and my relationship with my parents. It’s a never ending cycle of these ‘fun family vacations’. It’s hard to sleep when our families come together because they are very loud at night. I literally cry at night just begging for sleep. Sleep is the only thing that helps me forget the hellish vacation I’m on. I’ve told my father countless times about this, but he has none of it. He stops me mid sentence and says I’m pissing him off and that I should shut up or else he will lose his temper.

I’m so afraid for December to come around, I’m at a loss and I don’t know what to do. I need help. I need to get away from this.

If you’ve stayed till the end to read this then I thank you. It means a lot.