I feel like I’m being a fake person. Now that I’ve started to do my work, trying to focus more and do what is “expected” of me. I go to class, I do my homework. The problem is, I’m not 100% into it. No matter what I’m doing, I find myself wondering why I even bother doing anything. I feel like it’s too late to bring my grades up (it’s past midterms) and I’m failing two out of four classes as a junior college student. I don’t know how to come back from that. I’m scared to talk to my professors about it because I’m sure that they’ve heard a number of sob stories, and I’m not trying to add on to that list. I’m being fake because my heart isn’t in anything anymore. I feel like I’m just going through the motions to make everyone happy.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
3 comments
I think you should talk to your professors anyway. A lot of them are understanding and willing to give second chances, as long as you’re willing to put in the effort. It’s possible that it’s not too late to achieve a passing grade by the end of the semester.
I don’t put a 100% into anything either, I don’t have a lot to give so it’s got to be spread around, and sometimes I can’t help but think what’s the point of doing this, and my motivation level is low.
But until I am dead, I have to live, and doing something even if I don’t get pleasure from it or see it as entirely worthwhile is better than doing nothing. Because hey, it’s entirely possible that we aren’t going to feel like this forever. Going through the motions now might end up being worth it later.
Good luck. 🙂
Make everyone happy.. Well thats a mission impossible you got there. Just do what i do, just give ur best and dont care for the results
I think you have to focus on making yourself happy. If you carry on this way, trying to go through the motions when you increasingly see no reason to, there’s the chance that you could end up feeling worse or the same. Talk to your professors – it’s their job to listen to you and help you when you’re having a problem with your work. I’d also talk to someone about how you feel. It’s a huge mental strain for anyone. I don’t think any of the people you’re trying to make happy would like to know that you’re suffering that way. It’s good if you can try to keep going and slowly catch up with your work, but make time for yourself as well.