After reading several posts and bawling my eyes out and then registering for the sight i feel to tired to write the feelings i wanted to share in the first place. Im just so tired all the time and tired of being tired. I really want to start taking my meds but the streets are so busy on the way to the pharmacy. I get anxious just thinking about the trip. Why do i feel so much hate from people and why cant i go anywhere and know im safe and my belongings will be unmolested when i return. Instead i hide knowing i will be hurt if i move. I dont want to hurt anymore. I dont want people to hurt me anymore. I dont want anyone to touch me anymore. You’ve beaten me down already, took away everything i loved, humiliated me  and violated me. Dont you have enough. Leave me alone. I dont want to die but i dont want to live either. Leave me be so maybe i can regain my will to live. Just please dont touch me