not that it matters, i cut my hair after having gone a few months without going skinhead like i usually do (only because my head itches with hair. dandruff shampoo has helped). it doesn’t matter for shit if i can look almost human in an occasional photo, because underneath it all, i was born female and naturally have female parts and so the rules are still in place – you only deserve love if you’re under 110 lbs and have either the horse face or the deer in the headlights face, that’s the only two faces men like. my round little old german lady face is the one men find ugly.
fig. 1 (actually one of my ancestors i found in my very intensive genealogy research)
don’t know where the hell the guy i had loved went last night, but no doubt he either found some bimbo to fuck or went chasing them. a total lie, saying he couldn’t afford bus fare to see me, but can put money on the card to go everywhere else. i’m not worth a shit to him after ALL i’ve done. groceries, bus, tattoo supplies, money directly from my paychecks, and all i ever asked in return was just to be my friend and hang out with me. now i’m not shit that he’s living with one of his game friends (who’s female and possibly dating another guy but no one in chicago has just one boyfriend, oh hell no why have one when you can take them all away from other girls?) and getting money from her since she makes more. why does life always work out for the worst assholes who use and walk all over everyone?!?
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There is something liberating about just shaving my head. Haven’t done it in a few years.
I’m getting out my pez dispenser to dispense a little advice: please kick that jerk to the curb. I loaned out my boots to someone earlier but as soon as I get them back please feel free to borrow them.
what do you mean? he has already kicked me out of his life and doesn’t want to see me ever again but he’s using a transit card in my name that’s on my account so i at least see when he puts money on it and what busses he gets on.
*Gives boots back* i might use a hatchet instead. Would you believe the nerve of some people? she started being nice for a while and sure… favor time. Doesn’t even surprise me at this point but heh, my plan still stands.
And i’ll repeat it for the… i think 4th time? you’re not ugly, really.
idk.. but thanks. men always see me as ugly. fat automatically equals ugly to 99.999% of people.
And he’s a dude.
I am going to interject here and state that fat does not equal ugly. It just does not. It is the (and I’m going to use a technical term here) jackass that you are hanging around with that is causing you to think that:
1) fat people are ugly
2) you are ugly
You really need to use my boots. I’m loaning Mf my screwdriver.
After all the exposure to japanese culture i’d say i’m 95% dude, 5% indie band groupie… but yeah, i still qualify as a dude, (a seriously screwed up one tho haha), and yup, you’re not ugly man.
BTW You’re not ugly.
only girls think that though. sigh.
Sigh. Say thank you. Us ladies never can take a compliment.
I’m sorry to hear you’re being used. I agree with the previous posts that you should get rid of the bad influences although how straight forward this is i dont know. When things me down I find it easy to criticise everything about me (in my case I think its true but others are just mistaken about what they see lacking in themselves). Honestly: you’re beautiful and I’m sure many on here would agree. I really hope you can find someone who values you for who you are. And cool haircut too, I think it suits you.
P.s. I like being in the 0.001% of guys 🙂