Despite nearly trying to end my own life again last week (without even posting on here, I might add, my head was a little too swimmy to form sentences) I feel strangely alive today.
Maybe it’s just because I finally mustered up the willpower to wash my hair for the first time in two weeks, because I am a disgusting human being. I just found it difficult to do much, so I didn’t wash my hair. But I did it today, and I feel strangely good. More like a person now, rather than something that lay there doing nothing.
Maybe it’s just because I’m not going to be at home for two days, and I can be away from all this stress for a little while, and just spend time with friends.
I’m not saying that little things will change your entire outlook, I’m just saying that somedays, the smallest thing may make you feel more alive.
-M
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I love your alias. Just want to put that up front, before I comment on your post.
I am so happy you stepped back into the land of the living. I know I’m in really bad shape when I stop showering, because I am a two or three shower a day kind of gal. Nothing washes sin off my soul like a good hot shower.
That said, it is so very good to see you tonight, alive with clean hair. I’d take your company with filthy unwashed hair any day of the week over you dead with clean stylish hair. Thank you for checking in with me. And for whatever delusional reason tonight I feel like all of you are talking to me personally. I might want to have that check out.
Thank you very much 🙂 I always see you commenting, and I’m sorry I don’t reply very often, but I genuinely appreciate the help you give me in your comments, and I just wanted to thank you for that 🙂
@tgwtcbgarden: Even if you never post I’ll be thinking of you. Stay safe.
Sometimes we do not care more for anything, we just want to stop living, that include we want to stop doing the things we have always enjoy doing too. We just want to lay down and let the days pass by. Personal hygiene is really important. An nothing can be more relaxing that having a warm bath. I am glad that you are feeling alive and will enjoy the company of friends. Good for you.
Thank you very much, I really appreciate you taking the time to comment 🙂