dysfunctional

Hey there friend.
I just turned twenty at the end of last month, and I must say, the fact that you moved out of your parents house, have 3 jobs and going to college. Holy shit, that’s a lot to do my friend. I commend you for your efforts, because that is not easy to juggle.

Life isn’t easy, man. That’s the inevitable truth about it.

Normalcy is a social construct that I’ve grown to hate, because it is one of the most confusing definitions in existence.. Apparently, you have to be set in some kind of acceptable social behavior and yet, still retain some form of originality?? Idk, sometimes I think being “weird” is normal too. Uniqueness is what makes us human..

I’m sad and self conscious and anxious and I hate myself more than anything and I feel disgusting. I feel this quite often, especially now.

This point in your life is very transitional. That’s okay. You will have lots of bumps and bruises at this point in time, that’s also okay. You will learn more and more about taking care of yourself and you will grow to be better in time. I’m not saying your problems and issues will disappear.. That doesn’t happen all the time. All I’m saying is that it will take time to adjust yourself to this new scheme of life, and that you should do what you can to make adjusting easier. Never said it would be easy. (I don’t want to sound mean or anything)

Spending all of your money too quickly? Make a list of what you need to be spending money on, and how much each thing costs, and manage your budget that way. Maybe that will help cut your “bad” spending habits (idk what you’re spending money on). Just an example.

I really wish I had other words of encouragement, but it seems my mind is mush now.. I hope some of this helps a little.