I don’t know if I love you anymore. I mean, I do love you, but I don’t know if I love you like I used to. After four years together, maybe we’re just in a rut or routine. I enjoy doing things with you–going places, playing games, conversing, but I don’t feel romantically drawn to you anymore. I also don’t feel drawn to anyone else though either. I still love you as a person, but not as a lover most of the time. I don’t know if you’re holding back romantically to let me deal with my issues, or because you’re feeling the same. I just don’t understand this. Maybe it’s just me though, and my mental issues. I don’t want anyone else romantically, including you. So maybe my depression is hindering my ability to crave intimacy or to feel as strongly towards you as before. But when I tell you I love you, I still mean it with everything I am and have, even though that’s not a whole lot.
I don’t know what I feel towards anything. Everything is so unclear. I don’t know what to do and I’m sorry. You deserve better and I’m selfish for allowing you to stay with me..