Nostalgia: Part 1
The other day, a song came across my iPod that I haven’t heard since high school. At first I was like, “Wow, I love this song. It’s been so long since I’ve heard it.” Then it reminded me how much simpler things were for me then. I didn’t have as many responsibilities, my depression wasn’t nearly as bad then as it is today, etc.
But when I hear a song I listened to after a fight with my parents, friends, or after a breakup, I would start feeling that pain again. I would remember how much I was hurting and it was almost like I was back there sitting in my dark room crying just listening to the music. So I’d be crying for that old pain I felt, but then I’d also think of how much worse things have become and how much more shit I’ve been put through and I cry for that too.
I love that old music and how it takes me back to a “simpler” time, but it is extremely bittersweet..
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I hava had those same feelings that you are describing. Old songs bring me memories, memories from a past I do not remember all, but connect me with some good memories too. Moments of life where things were most simple. Sometimes it hurts me very much, sometimes I would like to go back to the precise moment when I was listening to the song and experience again that feeling of eternal happiness. In others moments, I start crying without stop. Sometimes memories are painful, sometimes are a treasure that make me continue having hope. Old songs bring a mixture of emotions to my life hard to describe.
Inhaling I love music too. I am transported to such wonderful places. There are some songs that when I put them on I can smell the grass of summer. There is this one song that transports me to a place that is so sweet and sad. I hold his hand and we sit next to each other and the world stops for us. Then the song ends.
Thank you.