Idk, i dont know how to really feel anything anymore, im not exactly sad, im not happy either though,
I lack alot of empathy or sympathy or whatever- to humans.
I dont like people. They can defend and lie and kill, they stab you in the back and do anything to save themselves or make sure theyre on top.
Humans are a disgusting race.
Destroying eachother with war and calling it
“defending our country”
“Honorable heros”
Bullfuckingshit.
There is nothing honorable about killing your own species.
We are here to advance and flourish
But we kill and murder the earth while we do it.
I HAD. a dream. Where i could save the world with words of love and peace and kindness and understanding.
That dream is dead when i realized how fucked the entire planet is.
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I’ve felt quite similar before. The only difference is I didn’t know why I felt like that, but I think in my case it was as a sort of defence mechanism. There are a lot of things you could hate humans for, but it might help to practice focusing on the good parts, reasons to empathise etc. You’re a part of the world too, and your dislike for people could be a part of what’s keeping you in that numb state where you don’t feel happy or sad. Maybe you should find some of the people who are trying to save the world that way. Not all people are willing to lie, stab you in the back etc. There are people who care a lot more about others.
I agree with Trix.
We live in world full of shades, sometimes good and bad are overlapping. We get lost in front on the bad, and start moving without direction.
There are people out there saving the world and keeping the peace. There are people fighting for a better world. There are people risking their life to protect us. There are people who care, sensible people. There are love and there are support.
We all have dreams, different dreams and perspectives. Share your dreams with others. Do you believe in love and peace? Talk about your feelings and no in how disgusting humans can be.
You do not have idea how broken I am now, how sad, how hurt for human promoting peace and love. Ironic, right? I have two choice, pardon them or fill my heart with negative emotions toward them. I chose the first option because I cannot fill my heart with that negativity. I am sure if all do the same, we will be more near to the world we want to have.
Remember that we cannot control everybody emotions, we can just control who we are and what we do towards others. Do always well, no matter what. Take practice and patience.
And yes, there are honorable people, there are heroes, there are people that go beyond frontiers, people who make dreams a reality. We cannot lose our faith. Even so, I am writing here like you, with all my faith almost gone.