I have so many secrets that are eating me up inside . That literally no one knows . I think it’s time to share some of them .
I’m addicted to meeting older guys online and meeting them in person. I just have a thing for older men. About 25-30 . I don’t know why. I feel like only
These people online give me the time of day . They listen to me . And plus I like
Getting free food from them.. I never end up really talking to them again. I just never feel a connection.
I think it is that I just hate being alone . And after all of this i feel so sad . The only thing that excites me is getting all dressed up before I go out with them . I get to wear heels and put on makeup. I’m automatically transformed from being 18 to 25.
I wish I had people in my life they had same interests as me . Art, music , life . I fbink that’s what I need in my life . People who lift me up . And people who have passion.
I’m so utterly depressed and I need something to hold on to. I feel lik I’m going no where and I don’t know how to start.
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Why don’t you start up a YouTube channel? Makeup tutorials, music, a daily vlog. I would watch.
Hmm good idea .
Maybe I’ll do calligraphy videos . I’ve been writing
You sound like me. Going out makes me feel good at least for that moment. In that night, I can forget my shitty life and get lost in someone else. I’m so empty inside and there’s a void. These hookups rarely develop into anything. I want to keep it casual anyway. It’s also hard to find an ideal situation. Either someone doesn’t have a car or their roommate is a piece of shit I can’t stand. Everyone has their baggage. It just seems to be something in the way to make it not worth pursuing all the way.
Just be safe out there. Always wear protection. People are disgusting. Try to really get to know the guy.
Your post reminded me of the movie “the lover”. The main character had much the same attitude you do regarding dating. She is one of my favorite woman movie characters.
Cool. I’ll look into that movie. Goodnight.