So simple. SO FUCKING SIMPLE.
all it takes is one misstep
or maybe a slight jerk of my hand on the steering wheel
perhaps a quick lead foot
could I slip into neutral and into the lake?
It’s just all so simple. Right there in front of me, a token accidental death with sinister roots. And yet I sit here, with my car turned off, writing this instead, talking myself off the ledge once more.
I’m so passively suicidal sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to die, but I also really, really want to. Oh well.
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@Babypanda: Sounds like a challenging day.
More like an overwhelming life
I get impulsive like that as well. which is why I don’t own guns.
I’m really too much of a coward to do anything anyway, I’m just afraid one of these days maybe I won’t be.
take it one day at a time, sometimes I take it one hour a time.
I’m just so tired of that method. I want either more from life or nothing at all, it’s so exhausting.
babypanda, you’re a good person. I hope you stay on. Hugs.
Thanks so much muspelhem, I hope you stay on too~