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Snail’s Pace

by Zetsumei 5/6/2016

written by Zetsumei

Heh, I can’t even write anymore. One thought seems to take a minute now. My thoughts and actions are as fast as a 100-year-old when I’m only a quarter that age…

Oh well, never understood the point of living, to be honest. All these feelings and sensations are just symbols of vanity to my apathetic mind. Besides, I don’t really give a damn if the next president is a woman or Neo-Hitler. Although, it will be much easier to get rid of this Hitler compared to the first one. Humanity will destroy itself regardless of method. That is their fate. Unless humanity can develop something to […]

5/6/2016 12 comments

Energy

by JiminyCrispies 4/14/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

So my family think I’ve either gone completely insane, or I’m on drugs. This energy and hyperactivity hasn’t gone away – in fact, it’s getting worse. My sleep is also next to nonexistent. I can’t slow down my speech, and I can’t stop moving around.

I got this sudden urge to go to the beach, and so I made my stepdad take me since I wasn’t allowed out the house alone – we went the beach at 9:30 at night. And I literally did a karaoke in the car in the way home again – I have also decided I’m rebuilding hospitals to give them all […]

4/14/2016 6 comments

Hair Cut and Energetic

by JiminyCrispies 4/12/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I got all my hair off yesterday, so now it’s a pixie cut. I’d planned to wait until summer, but I just went to get it done without a second thought. I don’t really know why I did it. I suppose part of it was so the Others don’t recognise me – I’m dyeing it tomorrow, too. The other part is just because through all my racing thoughts, this one stuck.

I did that stupid scale thing with my psychiatrist today. 1-10 for mood, and over the last four days it’s been an 8 or 9, and for my energy it’s 10. I didn’t bother bringing […]

4/12/2016 4 comments

No Sleep

by JiminyCrispies 4/11/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I didn’t sleep Saturday night. I slept for 3 hours last night. I haven’t slept tonight – it’s 5AM. And I’m so energetic I couldn’t care less about the loss of sleep. I have done so much stuff tonight (this morning I stayed in my room because I couldn’t calm myself down – I was extremely happy and was thinking about all these great ideas to do, and I annoy people and get into arguments over it).

For the past couple hours I’ve been doing a sketch for a painting I’ve put off for almost 2 months – surprisingly I’ve been able to focus on it […]

4/11/2016 3 comments

Fuck this shit can’t take it anymore I’m at my end

by Sui the Bunny 4/4/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So I’ve been crying for the last hour overdon’t the shit my brother threw at me all his words nasty bitter angry words… Saying I can’t do this can’t do that I’m not doing anything. Everything I do is wrong I’m never right I’m stupid never gonna get a job. Useless, worthless leach. I fucking stood up to him to some degree before the tears came rolling in I feel like clawing skin till it burns and bleeds I need to feel pain I want to feel pain. But I feel nothing I feel empty cold and bitter I’m numb from his words. I’m so […]

4/4/2016 18 comments

So this is goodbye… For now

by Sui the Bunny 3/27/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So I just got a call I have to go away to a psychiatric hospital for a while… I have to leave tomorrow… Oh well we all knew this was going to happen….

3/27/2016 20 comments

Deadpool

by JiminyCrispies 2/27/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I think this photo will be the wrong way around when it posts, but oh well.

I finally went to see Deadpool yesterday, so of course I had to draw him. I don’t really like the way this turned out, but I decided to post it anyway since no one else will look at it. So, despite not leaving my room until 3 or 4 in the afternoon, I still had a productive day.

2/27/2016 40 comments

Batman vs Superman

by JiminyCrispies 2/25/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Despite the fact that I’m unwell at the moment, I was somewhat productive today. I am ridiculously excited for Batman vs Superman, and so I decided to use art as a distraction today by spending a few hours on this (this is the first piece I’ve done and put effort into since Christmas, so my blending is iffy. Blah).

My camera quality is awful and the lighting made it difficult to get an okay photo of it, but oh well.

2/25/2016 23 comments

It’s Time, Bye Everybody

by FearOfGod 2/23/2016

written by FearOfGod

Everything is prepared, in about 20-30 minutes I will go into my bathroom, sit in the tub, zone out to some good music, and fall asleep. I’ve wanted to do this for so long. I wish I could say proper goodbyes to a few people before I go but that would tip them off to what I am about to do.

I wish things could have worked out differently for me but I guess an average life was too much to ask for. Oh well.

2/23/2016 14 comments

wow…

by Alan Ominous 2/22/2016

written by Alan Ominous

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/02/tmp_23933-Session-121220324555.mp3

Found an old recording. Just my guitar and a drum loop. Too many effects dials and not enough production experience. Oh well. Have a good laugh. If you listen in headphones, turn them down, it gets stupid loud and squealy.

Edit: I know the rules say no hate, but feel free to hate on this. I’ll be the first to admit it sucks damn hard.

2/22/2016 7 comments

2016…woow

by fakingit 1/4/2016

written by fakingit

Hey guys I haven’t been on here since like 2014 but not really active since 2012
Anyways update
Things are okay
Im 18
I graduate this year
Start college in the fall
My family is okay ish i wish it was better but oh well
Congrats to everyone who’s made it another year
May we still push forward
<3
Anyone need someone feel free to text me
(208)446-2439 I will reply generally quickly

^^texting app not real # to anyone who wants to blast me

1/4/2016 3 comments

Losing Control into a Freefall

by Zetsumei 12/26/2015

written by Zetsumei

Memories are flashing through my head constantly now like a movie stuck on replay. All of my mistakes and superficial triumphs… In an effort to escape them, I resorted to my old self-harm habits: hair pulling, scratching, biting and eye gouging… With the very hand that is trying to rip away the past reflected in the eye above, so will it end the future. I find it ironic that if I came to SP sooner, I might have not “thrown away my ex due to depression” venting on here instead. Oh well… That superficial nymphomaniac probably would have dumped me anyway since I might as […]

12/26/2015 5 comments

It’s so simple.

by babypanda 12/9/2015

written by babypanda

So simple. SO FUCKING SIMPLE.

all it takes is one misstep

or maybe a slight jerk of my hand on the steering wheel

perhaps a quick lead foot

could I slip into neutral and into the lake?

It’s just all so simple. Right there in front of me, a token accidental death with sinister roots. And yet I sit here, with my car turned off, writing this instead, talking myself off the ledge once more.

I’m so passively suicidal sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to die, but I also really, really want to. Oh well.

12/9/2015 8 comments

There’s no fucking way

by Rotted_Flesh 11/4/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

That I am going to kill myself in the home I grew up in. No way. Not now. Not ever. I can’t be such a shame to my family especially my dear mother who I love so much. I know things have been rough on us all since Dad passed and I would never want to add anymore to grieving. I’ll be that good son you always wanted me to be, and I promise I won’t be a corpse that you’ll have to come and identify. There is not going to be any trace left of me. I don’t want a funeral, I just need […]

11/4/2015 1 comment

Nothin I do is workin

by Father-bigperm-dieing 11/1/2015

written by Father-bigperm-dieing

I’m thinkin about to tell my family that I’m goin through wit this. If they don’t like oh well.

11/1/2015 3 comments

but why

by radi0active-f_ckup 9/9/2015

written by radi0active-f_ckup

I keep trying to tell myself that it’s alright, but it just doesn’t feel like it is. Everything is continuously getting worse, & I don’t understand why?? Like I try to get better but I’m just to the point where I don’t care if I’m better or not, you know? My grades are slipping & it’s not even half way through the first quarter. I wake up in the morning just wanting to come home & go right back to bed. It kind of really sucks, but it’s fine, I guess. Oh well. I don’t really have much to say. I just really needed to get that […]

9/9/2015 1 comment

nothing to describe how im feeling.

by Delisnak 8/18/2015

written by Delisnak

so lost.tired.broken. nothing to describe how im feeling really. i want to sleep forever it seems like my whole future has gone out the window. so tired and restless but i have to figure ths shit out i might be over dramatic but oh well. ig i cant say that or id be a hypocrite haha..

8/18/2015 1 comment

?

by 00778 7/25/2015

written by 00778

I guess my life isn’t horrible, and I feel really lame thinking about suicide when I know so many people have it way worse than me, but I just always feel so lonely. I never have anybody to talk to and no matter how hard i try to get rid of it I always have this feeling that I’ll get nowhere in life. Oh well.

7/25/2015 11 comments

so how does this work?

by fumanchu 6/14/2015

written by fumanchu

I mean i’ ve never done this before,”speak in public”. The only thing i ve ever said in public was a druken “just stitch me up and let me go home,i need some sleep”. Yes i attemped a suicide 2 years ago only to find out that i was far more messed up than i thought. I will spare you the details.
This is more of a desperate move, i actually don’t want to talk, but the whole idea,and site which i found looking for the right,or wrong, dose of sleeping pills,distacted me so… I have gone really far since then. I got into a […]

6/14/2015 1 comment

Stop being so sarcastic

by disappearingme97 6/5/2015

written by disappearingme97

Maybe I’m just too sensitive. I don’t want to be a part of them anymore. Is it my fault or is it yours. Stop being so sarcastic.

Stop. It makes me hate myself. It makes me hate everyone. But what do I know about hate.

I just know that I slowly don’t like going out with people. Don’t like people anymore. Don’t wanna hangout with people. Don’t wanna be social with people. Cause everything I’m doing has a sarcastic rebuttal. Oh well.

Swallow it. And pride down. Who cares about me anyways. Stop being so whiny.

The world is an ugly place. Ugly ugly place. Oh well.

6/5/2015 1 comment

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