I went thro a lot of stuff the last couple years. I lost all my friends, i live alone, and practically have no family. I cant talk about my problems to anyone except to myself. i think about killing myself about 50% of the day, and all through the night. I wend to the doctor and psychotherapy. It didnt work out for me. I tried antidepressants but it makes me feel even less alive, and id rather be sad then just could. Feeling something is better than nothing for me. So basicly all i managed to do the last 3 years is loose the fuew friends that i had, fail miserably with all the women i liked and loose the interest in everyone and everything. Im having a relapse. Every night after work i go home, drink and take drugs, sometimes they help and make me feel a bit alife for a short period. I tried changing, did everything i can, and now i run out of energy to do anything. Im now depresive for about 10 years and i just cant stand it any more.
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even if i certainly know i’m younger than you sir .. i can very much relate to how you are feeling ..
You dont have to call me sir. Im not that old, and wer basicly all the same. And thank you
I have to ask cause have you watched black Butler cause one of the characters is named luka and a lot of people use anime names (I also watch anime)
hahaha no, thats my real name. I sometimes watch anime too. At least the ones that arent too weird