Hello, Father. I never did live up to your expectations… Well, I guess I should thank you for creating me… That is creating this monster that shouldn’t exist! Even if it was just a chemical imbalance, it’s far too late to change anything! This family is already broken. Yet, you are too blinded to realize your actions are doing more harm than good. Enjoy your “freedom”, father.
Hello, Mother. You tell me to ignore the irrationality of father but it doesn’t matter anymore. A madness far worse than depression has already set in. It’s rather funny if you think about it… A one million dollar investment ruined by suicide. You don’t know it yet but you’re better off forgetting I even existed.
Hello, Brother. Sorry for making Mom cry. I’m quite surprised I’m the only one that snapped in this cursed family.
Hello, Not Interested in Life. It seems you already have several men interested in you so I guess I’m not needed. I wonder if I’m the only one of your “suitors” that is around your age. There’s not much I can say that won’t sound “fake” to you, is there? However, I can’t do “fake” since I’m quite numb. There’s no point in lying when you have nothing to lose, after all. Oh well, if I become a ghost, I’ll haunt your online boyfriend until he realizes how special you truly are. Your loyalty is truly astounding in this type of world. I would say having you as a girlfriend is comparable to winning the lottery three times in a row. If you don’t understand what I mean, just ask Hazy Day Sunflower about Powerball.
I hope writing this didn’t sap all of the energy I had for the day. Meh… *probably loses consciousness in front of laptop in next 10 seconds or so*
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I enjoyed reading your post because it is REAL. The candidness on this website is refreshing.
Question – are YOU the “one million dollar investment ruined by suicide”?
I think that amount is a bit high for raising a child to age 18 in the U.S., which is currently around a quarter of a million dollars. Add medical school, and … ok, that’s getting closer to a million dollars.
Zetsumei … you are strong and daring. 🙂
Talk to your brother it seems you have a fine relationship with him maybe he could be a nice company… idk
Forgett about women for a while, we are really complicated. Most of what is said about relationships is made to sell (movies, merchandise, lifestyles)… eat something and charge up your energy.
Hugs
It hurts to see people suffer so much.
Oh boy. I’m going to become into a hated person for writing this but… here we go.
I don’t know you that much, because i’ve been absent from sp for quite a while (at least mentally, due to college), but i hear you on the disappointing your family thing… you need to realize something tho, they decided to give birth to you, it’s not something that you asked. They invested in you growing up and all, but your life is yours, to do whatever you desire with it. Some parents might think they own you because they raised you, but that’s not true. No human being owns another, unless the owned one allows the owner to own them (not idea if that makes sense).
So again, your life is yours to do with it whatever you desire. Other people’s expectations shouldn’t limit what your wants, and shouldn’t limit what you want to express either. If your father is not acting like a decent parent, it’s your choice to call them out with all the baggage that comes with, but it’s even worse to allow it. So you did the right thing, regardless of the backlash you might be getting.
As for your last part… and this is why i’m going to get hated. Nope. A thousand times no. I have nothing against sadgiraffe (her previous nickname), and i find her to be pretty smart, but she’s not being loyal, she’s being a freaking coward. She sees everyone as a threat, a stupid person, or both.
Sad to say it this way, but you seem like a cool, smart guy, and you surely deserve better than someone that has been hiding behind an internet relationship for years (that she knows herself is going nowhere). If she really was serious about it, she would have done something about it by now other than bitching about it and claiming the world is against her (like freaking travelling there or forcing her “bf” to travel, even by threatening him). Again, i have nothing against her, but there’s a limit to how much you can play the victim.
So yeah, most likely i’ll be hated, cursed, and damned by what i said, but you know what? i don’t care.
Never make internet relationships. Never.
Fuck you. Fuck this site. I’ve never bad mouthed members like this and never would. Fuck you and fuck this site, ****
Not interested in life – I haven’t read any bad-mouthing by you.
I don’t like the criticisms when I read them.
I’m extra sensitive, which is why I was initially reluctant to post on SP.
I don’t want advice and I don’t want to be judged or criticized.
Not interested in life,
Easy girl, others have made bad decisions in their life, some times when they see something it strikes a nerve and they can’t help but comment, the way you word it makes a difference not to offend anyone, I’ve met girls online myself, lived with one for 8 years, it didn’t work out, but i also met girls off line and they didn’t work out, so what’s the difference? life is a gamble sometimes you win sometimes you lose. I’ve lost many times.
I didn’t say you bad mouthed sp members, but often you’ve jumped into judging people’s behaviors (even your online bf), and that’s mostly what i was i referring to. I’m honestly sorry about what i wrote because i know it must be awful to read that from someone that you don’t even know, but what i wrote is not a lie. I know that it’s not my place to judge others but you’re just wasting your life away with your internet relationship and i’m pretty sure i’m not the only one who thinks that, even yourself have said it from time to time. Also, i have no problem with you telling me to fuck off or whatever you want to say, i sort of expected that tbh, and i guess it’s what i deserve for saying things like that. Don’t worry, i won’t bother you at all anymore, and i won’t bring up the subject either.
Hello Zetsumei
thanks you for thinking of me. I’m sorry about it… But i appreciate that you did do… Yes, about the title hmm, I’ve felt I’ve been burnt myself (not by you)… Thanks society. Not. I’m sorry about my short reply… I’m no good at this
Zetsumei,
it’s your childish buddy, hey i’m here to, i didn’t ask to be here, to this day i don’t know what’s drives people to have children? after watching all the suffering I’ve seen, why do cockroaches make more cockroaches? ha ha! i can say this because i never had children for that reason. i got sucked in with the house and the picketed fence, after all i was alive and like the rest of the wondering assholes on the planet it seemed like the thing to do, but i didn’t add to the misery i’m proud to say, i try to take care of other poor assholes like myself, like my cats, and friends. 99% of life is an illusion far as expectations go, man made illusions, look at commercials claiming there products can do remarkable things, then when you buy the product your dissatisfied, anyways when talking about Not Interested in Life and saying ” I would say having you as a girlfriend is comparable to winning the lottery three times in a row.” was a very nice comment, showing your compassion to wanting to be happy and her too, nothing wrong with that. i want the same for everyone on this site as well, including myself 🙂 bottom line you are here use your head make the best of it for yourself and others, and above all wear a rubber. 🙂