… Numb.
Just got news that a guy we attended university with passed away. Car accident. It’s weird. He just qualified. Only started working on the 4th of Jan. Hasn’t even received his first paycheck yet. Now he’s dead.
Another guy died in a car accident last year. He was in his final year as well. There were 5 of them in the car and only he died, the others survived.
I don’t really know how to feel. I’m just numb. It’s sad really. People who really deserve to be around are dying. Just when his life was about to get better. The 6 year struggle at Medical School was all for nothing then. It’s sad.
Just got me thinking. This year is definitely not the year I want to die. Not in the next 2 or 3 years at least. My family needs to get something out of all the money and faith they placed in me.
If there is a God out there, or any other higher being, I am literally on my knees right now, begging you not to end my life in the next 3 years. Please make me feel less shitty this year so the urge to off myself decreases. Protect me from the shitty fuckers who want to kill me. Please God, don’t fuck this up for my family. They will have nothing if I die. Just… Don’t fuck this up.
That’s my prayer right there.
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Amen.
We’ll be here to assist you, Ylem. I myself will have every confidence in your ability to honour your family and the memory of your brother, but remember — do yourself proud before anyone else.
You’d better be here Shephard. You know you’re the guard standing outside my house protecting us on one of those horrible nights. I said 3 years. So, you’re sticking around for 3 years with me.
Amen. So that’s what you say after a prayer. I thought it was bum bum.
3 years. Seen. I will not let you down.
Oh, of course…
*Bum bum.
But, be careful. I’m a girl. I change my mind like I change a pair of shoes. Remind me of this in the next few days.
Typical… 🙂
But okay. My memory ain’t too good either, so I’ll probably forget and need a few knocks to the head to jog my memory.
Anyway, take care Ylem. I need to sleep. *hugs*
I believe everything will be alright for you and for your family.
Enjoy the next 3 plus years
and remember to Use the Force!!
Use the Force!!! Yeah…
I hope the force listens. If you believe everything will be alright, I believe it too.
Ylem31,
i see a pattern here quick quit school! ha ha! sorry it’s really sad, it happens, but you will be fine 🙂
Rocketman,
No, I’ll stay. I don’t have a dick so I think I’m safe.
One of my classmates from HS was killed in a fatal car accident involving a drunk driver in New Mexico.. She was 21.. I understand how you feel. Sometimes, I want to take her place because she deserved a chance at a good life. Unlike me, who feels like a completely waste of energy and space a lot of the time..