Is it bad that I’m not sad ? She wants to die and I hope she can soon . She is handicap so she only sits on her bed all day . And the fact that she hid her breast cancer until now shows she wants to die . Of course I would be sad if she died , but she would be in peace . Her husband and all her friends are dead so she doesn’t have much left .
I know she’s annoyed to be in the hospital . I’d rather her be home . But the breast cancer is so bad … I don’t even know how a 80 year old woman can have it . But I guess she’s had it for a while now . Her breast is purple and red and the cancer has spread down her arm so it’s so swollen .
I just want her to find peace now .
But that means another one of my family members gone . Their almost all dead .
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My grand-grandmother died last year. I also felt bad that she had to suffer so much in the end, which doesn’t mean I didn’t cry at her funeral or that I don’t miss her, but no one should have to suffer just so we don’t have to miss them. It would be selfish of us. The only pity was that her long lost husband who died in war was finally found after 70 years, just as she began losing memory and she couldn’t visit his grave, but at least she died knowing what happened to him. I believe she is now in a better place, reunited with her loved ones.
Don’t feel bad for the way you feel.
Death is a normal step in life. Most people see that as a huge tragedy without taking the living conditions of the person that’s affected into consideration, worrying only about the fact that their beloved one is not going to be around anymore. In your case you’re seeing how she’s living, and everything she’s having to endure to continue her life so… i don’t think that’s bad, it’s just that you see things differently and you are considering your grandmother’s feelings too. I’d say you should feel good, since in some way, you’re the only one who’s truly showing empathy for her (and i’m guessing you’d want the same if you were in her place).
How long has she been keeping her cancer a secret? Can anything be done to save her or is it far past that? This makes me very sad. My grandmother means the world to me, I can only imagine how you feel. You’re not wrong for wanting her to find peace.
Sorry to hear this. I can understand, sometimes we think that quick and easy death is better than long suffering. It is normal to think like this.
I hope it happens quickly. My grandfather suffered so much, near the end the pain was to much to bear he had to kill himself. Hope peace comes quickly.