It’s 1:30 am and I just woke up from yet another terrifying dream, after sleeping for less than 2 hours. The torture just doesn’t stop. I feel terrible. I’m fighting the urge to cut right now by studying. Haaa… It’s not really working out. Can’t really concentrate. I can barely stop thinking about the terrible dream. Doing Psychiatry right now is killing me as well.
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I had a few of those nights a week ago I had a dream of the zombie apocalypse I was fighting a zombie and I ending up waking up by punching myself in the face scary as hell what you can go through when your dreaming. I couldn’t sleep and my anxiety was incredibly higher than what i can control.
My nightmares involve the death of my family. All the time. It’s been like this for quite some time. I rarely have a peaceful night.
Have you tried lucid dreaming? It helps get control over dreams. It’s not even that hard to learn, only takes some time to get hold of it. It’s not perfect and can cause other problems if not handled properly, but if you already have such terrors it can’t get much worse by lucid dreaming.
If you have light sleep you can somehow control your dreams, by realizing you’re sleeping and not letting “them” take control, and i guess it’s what mato42 means by lucid dreaming (was replying and had most of it written when i noticed the post above, lol). No idea if that’s the case, but i’m a really light sleeper (anything wakes me up), and i often try to do that to save myself from my awful nightmares.
It’s basically the same thing. Dreams become lucid when you realize you are dreaming. There are tricks to become aware of dreaming inside a dream and from that point it comes natural. You don’t need to be a light sleeper. The hardest part is inducing dreams themselves on frequent basis, but if dreams (nightmares included) are already present, this is not an issue. After some practice dreams become more vivid, more frequent, last longer and are easier to shape. Interesting thing about this is that while our imagination gets on par with real life, our mind is kind of slowed down, it’s not possible to think as fast and as clear inside a dream as in real life, hence the training beforehand to prepare how to handle those dreams. It’s quite hard to come up with an idea inside a dream unless you had that idea before you went into the dream.
It can be addictive, among other issues. The vividness can be misleading itself and create confusion whenever you did something in dream or in real life, whenever you spoke with someone or if it happened just in dream. It sort of blends into one image. During lucid dreaming you feel everything the same way you feel it in real life. You can enjoy food, cold weather, soft touch on you cheek or warm hug…. but you also feel pain the same way you feel it in real life. Few times I achieved absolute control over dreams, I was literally manipulating the enviroment. Blowing stuff up, changing color of the clouds, creating huge waves. It felt amazing. Until my own projections attacked me, bitten me and stabbed me to death. But as long I kept things subtle, all was fine. Once I actually scared the nightmare itself so badly it literally ran away. The hunted became the hunter.
Fun trivia: The movie Inception is loosely based on the idea of lucid dreaming and many things from that movie are actually applicable in lucid dreaming.
I have nightmares… but the nightmare never make me want to cut. Cutting doesn’t do any good to anybody. I don’t know who started this trend of self cutting but it has to go. Find some other way to vent if and when you are upset Like maybe > music, Art, Writing, dance, exercise, photography or some other creative outlet. Cutting is no good, please don’t do it.