I have college tomorrow. I can’t go. I need to figure out a way to stay off. My mum will most likely yell and still send me in. Still, I need to try. The hard part is thinking of a way to put his into words. Most of the time I point blank refuse to leave my room without an explanation until 3/4 hours later. I doubt I’ll be able to do that this time round.
The voices and Angels have been bad all day, and the shadow people have been constant. I managed to get through last night with minimal injuries, so I haven’t mentioned the hospital to anyone yet. Despite me utter hate towards them, I honestly feel like I should go to one. The Angels haven’t said whether or not there are Others there, and so I’m going with the idea that there’s not many there. The only problem is, I can’t bring myself to say it to my mum. I can’t even admit it aloud to myself.
My mum won’t talk about anything going on with me, and says I need to snap out of it. So really, what chance do I have of staying home tomorrow? I can’t exactly go up to her in the morning and say ‘hey, mum. the voices are telling me to hurt and kill myself, and the others are going to kill me in college tomorrow. so i need to stay home indefinitely’
She would laugh in my face and drag me out the bed. I’m terrified of what will happen in the morning. That’s awful – I’m terrified of my mum. Because she is as unpredictable as me, and that is easily the worst thing about her.
The only other thing I can think of doing is asking for a doctor appointment for the morning. That way I can speak to him about the Others, and about hospital. Again, I would have no idea what to say to him, though.
The likelihood of the appointment being scheduled during the morning or even early afternoon is low, because my mum doesn’t want me missing anymore college. The only problem is, she’ll ask why I need to go this time.
If she forces me to go in, I’ll probably hide in the library a few streets away until 3. No doubt they will call her and ask about my absence, but it’s the only other option I have.
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Sorry to hear that I think u should try speak to your mum how old r u if the voices r saying to harm your self u should speak to someone and try get help
I’m 17, the only time my mum bothers to listen about them is when I’m in therapy. I already see multiple people about the voices, they’re in the process of analysing what I’ve told them.
But who are these “others”? What are they? Human? Spirits? Angels I have an idea what they are.
The Others are people. They’re strangers who are part of this group who are trying to get me.
Okay. This group is something like a cult? And they want to kill you. I get chills already. If this is true all I can do is pray for you.
why do you need to tell her why you are going; why should that be her business? Its not her appointment
My mum thinks it’s important that she knows about every appointment I go to and what I talk about in them, despite the fact that I tell her every time it’s none of her business.
Your mum is very controlling and insensitive. I hope when your 18 you can eventually save up and get out of that place, or something
Think you could sneak out of college for an appointment? But they might not like that … I don’t know if you should tell them
I plan on moving in with my nan again. This house is too noisy and I’m triggered here most often.
I doubt I will even be in college to sneak out, if I fail at staying home I’ll end up at the library all day.
I might ask my nan to get me an appointment in the morning, and use the excuse that my knees are causing me problems again.
I think you should try speak to your mum if your harming your self it might sound weird but you might be psychic my sister is she hears voices and angels and she 17 to therapist will say your schizo but it’s a gift
My mum has the worst reactions when I relapse, so I never speak to her about it.
Please don’t let them get you.
Do I self harm
so, you’re saying that a few people are threatening to kill you ?