I am now in college. It has been 3 years since I’ve lost my dad. Its been a hard three years. I am trying so hard to make it in this adult world. I never knew I would be this stressed out. I have been finding so many grey hairs. I am only eighteen. This is crazy. Sometimes I want to give up. There are so many days when I can’t find a way out of my bed to get to class. Last semester I did horrible. I lost my $9,000.00 scholarship. It broke my heart. I don’t know where I’m going to school next year. I don’t know if I can afford to stay here or not. I’m sad and scared. Last week, they found someone that hung himself in my dorm. I didn’t know how to feel about it. I didn’t know him but it scared me because I know it can be done now. I don’t think I could kill myself. It scares me too much. I’m afraid of what will happen after I die. I have also gained so much weight in the past two years. I am going to try to go on a diet but I know it’s going to turn into something completely unhealthy. I don’t know what to do anymore…
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hi there… welcome back.. take a deep breath and try to take one day at a time..easier said than done I know…here to talk if u need
As sportsnut said, deep breaths darling. College is rough, but don’t let it get you down. One foot in front of the other, shoulders back, chest out, chin up. I’m terribly sorry to hear about your dad, and the person in your dorm. I’m here if you need someone.
I am in university and life is quite miserable.
You make a good point. Adult life can be very stressful. When I got out of college and entered into the real world of working and paying bills and the whole nine yards. I was kind of pissed off. I felt like my parents and the schooling I went through didn’t properly prepare me for the real world. It was hard, but it got easier. I had to learn a lot of things about survival the hard way.
You say you have grey hairs at the age of 18 ? WOW! you must really be stressed because I am 43 and I have no noticeable grey hairs on my head yet. I have a few in my beard when I grow it out but none on my head. Yeah losing a parent can be really stressful and school and working and all of the responsibilities of the adult life can all add to the stress factor. Try to slow things down in your mind. Try not to think about the past too much and try not to worry about the distant future too much either. Just focus more on the issues you are facing NOW> Like your schooling and decisions that are effecting your current life. I am sorry to hear about the person found dead in your dorm and how that effected you. Try to put that out of your mind. That is not going to happen to you. You are a strong person and you can make it through all of this. There are moments in life when things get stressful > but everyday is not like that. Try to sort out your issues and tackle them one at a time in little steps.
Do you have anybody who can help you at this time in your life? Like anybody who could help you out with finances or help counsel you in your academics??
I wish you well. I wish I could help you more.