I’m deciding whether to kill myself. I have struggled with depression for a long time. I have seen many therapists, and nothing helps. I couldn’t even get an appointment with a psychiatrist. I had to call for months and I finally got an appointment in another week. I don’t know if I will still be around then.
I talked to the mental health department and told them I was considering killing myself. They said good luck.
The thing is there is nothing really wrong with my life. I don’t have any real hardships besides depression, anxiety, and being fat. My meaning is I don’t have a reason to be depressed. I just am. I have felt this way for a long time.
I am so tired of being depressed and not enjoying life. I don’t see the point in living if this is all I have to look forward to. Most of my affairs are taken care of. I would just need to fill out some final paperwork.
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I know how you feel, I’m in a similar situation! Exercise might help, or better yet get a physical job, it’s like getting paid to work out. Some of my happiest times were when I worked my ass off at a construction job. The feel good kicks in after about a month, lose weight, get jacked, and feel great.
Being fat isn’t something trivial, esp. nowadays with society being health-conscious. Perhaps it’s the major reason for your depression, if there aren’t any other major issues.
When you’re overweight, you’re a social outcast, no friends/dates/social life, that’s going to lead to loneliness and depression. Also the food you eat, a sedentary lifestyle is going to emotionally tax you negatively as well.
The solution is very simple as Dataspy already suggested, start exercising. That doesn’t mean you hit the gym and go full bore. Start slow then increase your intensity. I used to be fit nearly my whole life and in fact I gained weight because I stopped working out…so it’s something I’m going to get back into soon.
The key here is to be disciplined and be intent on changing your life. No one can really talk you into it other than yourself-the drive comes from within. Many people have gone down this hard road and succeeded and they turned into new/different people. You can do it as well.
I’m at the same point in my life. Trying to decide whether or not to go through with it.
I have the means to do it, I just get confused about whether its the right thing to do or not.
You will find that there would be a reason for your depression, its just not an obvious one.
Depression is like a headache, there can be 101 reasons of why you have it.
It can be situational as in based on a current problem.
It can be an unconscious thing from your childhood that you may have supressed.
It can be an emotion you are not expressing. I know if you can’t express anger it can turn inward in to depression. It can also be a way of avoiding doing things. Depression is the biggest procrastinator in life and we can make ourselves feel that way on purpose to avoid something.
It can be any number of different vitamin or mineral, nutrient deficiencies.
If you are female it can be your hormones or thyroid
and the list goes on and on.
Trust me I’ve studied it immensely, there are so many reasons.
You may have an underlying health condition that creates symptoms of depression.
Maybe google medical reasons for depression and see if any fit your symptoms and get tests to see if you have these conditions.
I did this the other day for unexplained outbursts of anger and got heaps of conditions.
Seriously there can be a lot of completely different reasons for it.
Here’s a decision for you? If you didn’t feel depressed would you want to live?
If the answer is yes then keep searching until you find the cause of your depression.