Cant hold it anymore, help…

i talked to my parents about me, about how i feel, and that i want to see a psychologist because i feel like i am dying inside but i wasnt strong enough to tell them that they were the reason, i feel this way because of them, i’ve figured it out. They are the ones fucking up my life and i hate it. i have figured that im completely happy when they are not around. But after i talked to them, it became worse, now they are all the time around, they dont even let me go to the freaking bathroom more than 3 m, they are behind my back 24/7 thanks to that i hate them even more now, i really thinking about leaving home, how? when? idk, i just dont wanna see them again, i hate them, i actually dont care if i’d have to sleep in the streets it would be better than being all the fucking time with them. Im truly losing my mind, fuck, i dont know what to do, and im scared of doing something that i will probably regret later, or kill myself that would be another option…Help me 🙁