I think I am going to take my life because otherwise I would go mad like Nietzsche. I am saying one thing to you, I don’t think that there is something after death, I am saying that whatever you do , you DO IT NOW, FOLLOW YOUR DREAM AND NEVER GIVE UP, DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO ! FUCK OMEGLE AND THAT ***** AND AN ENTIRE LIFE OF CHRISTIAN INDOCTRINATION. EVEN IF THERE IS AN AFTERLIFE, HOW THE FUCK IS IT GONNA HELP YOU? YOU ARE GOING TO GET OLD AND DIE. PERIOD. I don’t want to continue my existence. I always felt like an intruder to this world.
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How are you an intruder in this world? Why can’t you be a chronicler of an alien species you are here to observe?
I always felt like an intruder, Idk for me people are just like brutes.
yes. I agree. People, on a whole, are ignorant and cruel. The humans surrounding me lately just flat out baffle me. I am abysmal at navigating these people in my life, their motivations and their needs. Brutish is a good description.
How old are you hazy ?
47.
Agreed!
Are you cute lol ?
I am absolutely she cutest middle aged SAF mom of three you will ever meet in your life. I kid you not. LOL. Really Costy? Is A/S/L next. You are cracking me the hell up this morning.
Hahahaha! Are you cute? Suicide Project just became a sleazy dating site like Facebook. Hahahahaha!
LOL. Costly is anything but sleazy. SP can get a little hilarious and funny, but rarely sleazy. the people who post here are extremely honest and heart felt. Even the angry ones that tell me to fuck off. Or I may say especially the honest ones who tell me to fuck off.
don’t forget about the ones who fall in love and get in trouble for being too happy
@sportsnut: you got in trouble for blowing up our forum with about a million posts, not for public love. We at SP whole heartedly applaud love in it’s many forms.
no actually after i went into e-mail hiding and said folks fell in love.. i shared it with you and mf the other day..and 2 people mocked me for 12 hours.. not to my face but it was obvious.. made me a little sad too, because I was crazy suicidal just 2 weeks ago.. and now I feel alive again, and you are the only friends I have to share it with
That is totally fucked up. I mean really kind of awful on a level that I hate. I missed that thread apparently. Or maybe I just ignored it. I sometimes tune out shit I don’t want to deal with or shit I may someone about that I will later regret. Occasionally I’ll chime in and tell everyone to STFU and be nice but sometimes haters got to get the hate out, and this forum is nothing if not honest and open. Typically at least. Sometimes folks get on here and try to censure each other or tell other people they are wrong, we are all human after all. I will say that I have done similar things as you when I was younger. Sometimes it ended well, sometimes it ended sadly. One time it ended with me marrying a sociopath that almost killed me.
So I will leave you with this, leap. don’t look, leap. If you are suicidal and rock bottom, leaping to live, there is never shame in that.
thank you..it feels so right.. she is so good to me and I am so good to her..mutual respect.. we met here so obviously we have issues, but the good thing is we should be able to share those.. the wonderful part for now is that it has momentarily reprogramed my brain in a good way..and all kidding aside we do owe a little thanks to you and mf..
Well Mf is always the voice of reason, I just backed him up.
I didn’t mean Costly was sleazy. Sorry. I tried to make a joke. I failed. Seems I do that a lot.
“I THINK I am going to take my life”. Hmmmm. Not 100% sure?
And what’s wrong with Freddie? He is my favorite philosopher.
They say he was insane. Have you read his work?
In my opinion, he’s one of the few people that actually understood the nature of existence.
He wasn’t nuts; the rest of the world is nuts!
But yeah, I’m right there with you on the no-afterlife thing and the screw the religious fools thing.
Do what you must.
But I hope you stay with us a little longer.
I enjoy your posts.
Jack
I just wanted to make you people laugh in all this depression hellish realm .
Understood.
Costy, even though you believe in nothingness I’ll take you to my paradise with me when I die. I’ll take your hand and bring you with me and everyone else in the world. The least every human on this planet deserves is the love of a paradise after this trial is over.
I hope I didn’t offend you Hazy. I just wanted to laugh a little in all this hellish existence.
Misses Hazy excuse me .
OMG no Costly, you made me smile and crack the hell up. I totally got what you were doing, which is why I told you I was cute. Like Pusheen kind of cute.
Here: meh.ro/2014/10/27/pusheen-cocaine/
Pusheen had a really rough night.
First run through….right to moderation.
Yeah, what’s up with that moderation thing? Seems that every time I add a link, BAM, it goes into moderation. Yet when I just type text, it has no problem getting posted.
I am not Costly, is Costy. Comes from Costinel and Costinel comes from the great name of the roman emperor Constantin.
AUTOCORRRREEEECTTTTTTT HEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
Yes I’m terribly sorry, you are indeed COSTY, not costly. LOL. My fingers auto correct things that are unfamiliar to them the same way my phone auto corrects things hilariously. That would be like you call my happy day sunflower. Cripes, i’m HAZY not happy. I am happy sometimes, but the name is hazy. LOL. My brain hurts this morning costy. I’m really tired of braining.
My typing is utter shit this morning. Just utter shit.
I feel the same after 3 months of insomnia. Pure madness..
I have decided to stop taking handfuls of Benedryl to fall asleep. It has resulted in having the most vivid epic dreams of my life. Also, and i”m unsure if this is Benedrl wd or not, I have been in a migraine haze for four days. I’m thinking that it isn’t the benedryl because the halo started coming on around Thursday, so I am fairly certain this is just a long drawn out migraine. The halo has been solidly in place since Friday. I can taste the halo if that makes any sense. Not any pain really, just this funky halo in my mind.
You guys are killing me!! 🙂 thank for the entertainment this morning!!! 🙂
I still want to kill myself. I don’t know why, but I want it so badly. Is there going to be something? or just the end.
There will be an exam prior to crossing the river Styx. You will be handed a bubble sheet and a poorly sharped #2 pencil. Anyone failing the exam will wake up the next day in a pool of vomit and an old rerun of Oprah! on the TV. Think carefully Costy…do you really want to wake up to old Oprah! reruns?
Costy,
I’ll get serious here “just the end”
I agree, once the brain is done. It is done.