Just when my head started to get quieter for the first time today (the voices have been constant), my stepdad came home with his friend after drinking for a couple hours. When they got here, my mum left to go out. Two hours ago my aunt and uncle and their kids came round. So now the house is full of four screaming kids and drunk adults. My anxiety is horrible, the voices are horrible, the figures are horrible. I’ve been crying upstairs for the last hour. I need to get away from everyone. They all keep opening the front door. They’re going to let the Others in. I’m terrified right now. I was going to go to hospital a couple hours ago, but I can’t bring myself to do that anymore. The Others will be outside waiting for me now, so I can’t leave the house. I don’t know what to do anymore. The Angels are screaming at me, and the figures are everywhere. I’m scared of everything. I just want to lay down and die. Escape from it all.
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Sorry to hear that Jimmy I’m here if u want to talk
Thanks, Drowning.
It’s not as bad as it was, not many people have been coming up the stairs so it’s not as loud.
Yeah I no how anxiety can be it can suck and if your hearing voices must be hard for u my friend
Anxiety is awful. Surprisingly, it’s a little better than last year – missed so much school due to it.
I had started to get used to hearing them around the beginning of last year because I’ve heard them for so long now, but these specific voices now are horrible.
How are you doing now, Jiminy?
It’s only slightly better. Earlier the voices told me they would leave me alone if I hurt myself – I did, and they left. For all of 5 minutes. They like to torment me this way, apparently.
The house is practically silent now since everyone except my step dad’s friend has left. I’m alone upstairs, but I’m terrified of the demons coming when it’s dark so I have my light on – I’ll lose more sleep again, but I couldn’t care less at this point.
Thoughts of going to hospital are back since it seems that it would be my ‘safe place’, but I still can’t leave the house.
What did u do to your self Jimmy ? U ok Jimmy have u ever thought of u might be gifted like the boy from 6th sense ?
I cut, again. Another ‘slip up’ – as my therapist calls them – to add in my therapy diary.
Despite believing in ghosts and stuff, I’ve never entertained the idea of being ‘gifted’.
Also, The 6th Sense was a great film. Just saying (:
Do research my friend u might be seeing dead people you see angels u said do if u research u find find out u are psychic my sister sees things etc she psychic but doctors will say your mad or what not
Sorry to hear you cut